husband lived with parents until marriage (now moved back)?

When I commented on this last night, DH said, "Otis? Ohhhh. Oh dis? Dis mah dog."

And who likes book clubs? I know I do.

So let's make some magic, and read a book together. Then, we'll meet in a magical cyber land to discuss the book, where we can drink wine and feel smart.

Any takers? The book club executive committee (me, imoan and Muddled) discussed reading a classic that most of us haven't read--we were thinking My Antonia by Willa Cather. Thoughts? 

Best feature?

Best personality trait?

Favorite thing about him?'

What does he do for a living?

One thing about him that drives you crazy?

Does he know about your nest addiction? Does he support it?

I think about her on here sometimes and just wonder how she's doing. Does anyone know? 

I think I want a divorce. And it just tears me because even though he's sweet, he adores me and is an overall nice guy, I just don't love him like a wife should love her husband. It's more of a friendship feeling with him now.

It wasn't always like that. Lately, he's been doing a lot of things that made me question why I married him in the first place. The biggest issue right now is him going back on his word about us moving out of state. I told him before getting married that I wasn't going to stay in my hometown for the rest of my life and that I wanted to move out of the state. He had the same vision I did and was really excited about moving as well. Then, a few days ago, he said he wasn't interested anymore. That's going back on his word and I am soooo pissed because to me, it's like him changing his mind about not wanting kids. It's a dealbreaker for me. He is hampering my ability to get my foot in the door in regards to a career (there are no jobs where I'm at).

 However, there will be numerous consequences to me should I choose to follow through on this. I have no means to be on my own, I refuse to move back to my parents house, I have a crappy job (while looking for a new one), our friends (and it's a giant group of friends) are going to want to take sides. I could lose a lot of good, good friends.

I've never been on my own. I've never had independence. At least with H, I have a lot of independence, but there's just more out there for me, I know it. 

I just don't know what to do. I'm stressed by the guilt that I feel because he really doesn't deserve this but yet I'm clinging to him because I have no alternatives. I'm worried about the consequences to my actions and if it will be the biggest mistake of my life.

So call me selfish. Especially with my overusage of "me" and "I". I just need to get it out somewhere because I can't tell anyone IRL.

I'll start.

Dear work, suck it. Please hire someone ASAFP so I don't have to work 12 hour days anymore.

Dear Christmas tree, suck it. Take your own self out!

Dear house, suck it. Why the helll does it smell like smoke 3 days after we had a fire when the fireplace is clean and empty!

SMH.

http://www.invadersmcnation.com

I am reviewing one of their clubhouses right now and have been perusing their website for kicks.  

I mean, I was pretty torn up over the fact that he treated me so badly, but I always centered my feelings on him.  Hurt that someone I had loved didn't love me back, pain that I had been so wrong about him, angry that he was a giant flaming azzhole that couldn't handle anything in a mature fashion.  And, yeah, I turned a lot of those emotions inward (obviously something must be wrong with me and/or my judgment, etc.).  But I never thought he cheated on me because another woman "made" him.  Even today, the infidelity itself is far down on my list of reasons why I divorced him.  If it had been the only thing wrong, maybe it would have made more of an impression on me.   

I know I'm rambling, but I see so many posts that are full of such anger towards the OW and I can't relate.  I feel nothing - no anger, no contempt, not even curiosity.  And, sometimes, that makes me feel like I'm some weird robot-person. 

ETA:  TN edited out f-v-c-k.  Hmmm.

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I mean, cheezus crust, mommy martyr much?

So it's gross and rainy here, I'm about halfway over the stomach flu and I get to take the baby to the DMV this morning.

First world problem, I know. Just wish me luck on not throwing up on anyone. Oh! And happy almost 30th birthday to meeeeeeeeeee.

His neck and skull will have to be fused.

But , she stressed that the immediate issues are dire. He may not make it. The blood clots and brain bleeds are very bad and dangerous.As of today, He is now fighting an infection and has a fever of 103. He almost died the other day, and he still is not out of the woods yet.

I'm not feel so happy right now...:(

It was really such a relief to get out of there, and I have everyone who responded to my original post to thank for it.  Seeing 40 complete strangers telling me that the situation really was ridiculous and that I wasn't just overreacting really gave me the confidence to leave.  Thank you all!

I want to do one for my spices!

This weekend will be The Hunt For Pants That Fit And Are Cheap But Cute At The Same Time.

We were being really mean to one girl (don't know who) and my mom was lecturing me about how we should be nice to everyone and bullying is such a big problem right now.

All in all, it was VERY strange! lol

Also, if you could provide these numbers for other hobbies, (e.g., golf, running, photography, reading, etc.), I'd be much obliged.

Are you doing anything special for your birthday?