Emotional

PinkinProvence

No real point to this post- I guess I just want to get it out!

Since I've found out I've been PG, I have not cried once.  I have been excited and happy but not the ecstatic, crying at ultrasound and ooo'ing and ahhh'ing over baby clothes pregnant lady you see on TV.  Not that I'm a psychiatrist, but I am sure a lot of my emotions were spent pre-pregnancy sobbing on the floor (and everywhere else I was) when I was told I couldn't have biological kids so I just didn't have it in me!

All of a sudden on Saturday, I became so emotional.  I think it kicked off with my changing body.  I was just not ready for it to be so sudden (stupid I know.)  And then I just felt like I had the worst PMS all day.  Last night, I couldn't stop crying because we started disassembling my dressing room, taking down the art, etc. in preparation for renovations starting this weekend.  It wasn't really sadness about losing my amazing sanctuary but I guess the realization and tangible aspect that after 6 1/2 years of marriage and things being pretty perfect, we are entering the unknown with some really big changes!  I hope I just had to finally get it out (maybe I missed that stage in early pregnancy?) and now am ready to move on!

Thanks for letting me vent!  This must have been pretty boring to read!!

wiggyslilsis

Awww I think that maybe this is the first concrete thing that has happened since you got pg. Everything else is so abstract it can be hard to connect to!

TinyTRex321

What you are feeling is normal. Get ready for a lot more emotional moments especially the first 6 weeks PP. I cried watching commercials with babies in it to begin with. There is a Johnson and Johnson one about the baby saying "you are doing alright mom, you are doing alright" and I still tear up at it.

botanicalbliss

Totally normal.  You're going through a huge change, and it's OK to feel emotional - even sad - about it!  Be gentle with yourself and give yourself the time you need to honor your feelings.

LittleLady77

Thanks for sharing.  It wasn't boring at all. 

Venti29

It's an emotional time

cinderin

I went from being the kind of person who cried once a year (maybe) when I watched a sad movie (Out of Africa comes to mind). To someone who cried often. Sometimes multiple times a day. Hormones are nuts. 

One of the harder things I dealt with was feeling "not myself". I missed *me*. 

Only about a week and a half PP, I am feeling much more like myself. I have my body back (changed, but I don't have to share!). I still cry all the time. Now it is because he is so precious or because I am so relieved he is healthy or because breastfeeding is hard...  

Being emotional is your new reality for a time. It is hard. 

pennstated912

I'm crying at song lyrics now. I feel nuts. Don't feel bad.

TudorRose11

Thank you for sharing! I don't think I've really allowed myself to be emotional since the week before my surgery. I cried all day everyday out of pure fear and since then, I just can't. Every once in a while it creeps up on me and I feel really emotional about everything (the whole ordeal, that he's still in there and healthy). I am waiting for that moment where it all hits me and I just cry and cry. I almost welcome it.

I hope you feel better after getting some of those emotions out!

Nicklet1081

Yep, totally normal!  I remember bawling my eyes out over not being able to open the jelly jar.  I called DH to come home to open it, and when he said no, I cried even harder.  It wasn't that I was that upset over the jar not opening, it was that it suddenly hit me it was all real.  I realized my pregnancy was happening and we were going to be parents.  I just took it out on the jelly!   

I hope you feel better soon!