I need a vent sesh.
I went to a BBQ last night for a friend. At this BBQ I found out that 3 girls I know are pregnant. 2 weren't even trying. And 1 didn't ever want to get pregnant again and "isn't really excited at all".
OMFG.... are they effing serious!?!?!?!?!?! GIVE ME A EFFING BREAK!!!!!!!!!
I am sooo sick of these stupid inconsiderate Fvcks and their fertility just throwing it in my face about their "surprise pregnancies" and "un-excitement".
They have absolutely no idea how gutwrenching it was for me to sit there and listen and complain about getting fat and morning sickness (and that ONE saying she just can't get excited about her pregnancy yet). They all three know that we've been trying for a while. They have no idea that there are soooooo many women out there who are struggling with infertility and have the hunger with every cell of their being to be pregnant. To see those two beautiful pink lines on a pregnancy test, to hear a heartbeat, to hang pictures of ultra sounds on their fridge, to feel that first kick! UGH! I would not mind having morning sickness if it meant i was finally carrying a baby.
I know I have not been trying as long as many of you ladies (a little over a year and a half). And I know how much I hurt right now. I can't even begin to imagine how long you some of you have tried and how much it must hurt.
But I am Bitter. I'm angry. I'm pizzed.
I just wanted to cry. I am NOT going to a babyshower today (for another co-worker). I can't. I don't have the heart. I don't have the guts. I will not put myself through that today.
Today I am going to be selfish. I am going to eat a hot dog. I'm going to do back to back Yoga sessions and put some of this negative energy on the mat. I'm going to let myself cry at Yoga. Then I'm going to sit on the couch and love on my husband and my dog and probably cry some more.
TTC for 18 months. IUI #1 BFP= EDD 5/23/14. Progesterone Suppositories and Levothyroxine started. First U/S 9/27
Re: VENT: BBQ Blindside (PR-not me)
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Spending $20,000 or more on trying to have a baby, going through multiple losses...only to have people complain about easily accidentally getting pregnant? It's hard. These ladies are allowed to come here and vent about such things. It's ok. And you don't have any right to tell them how they should feel.
Or did you mean you were only leaving until you could post to prove how you are right and we are mean?
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