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Our tech team has launched updates to The Nest today. As a result of these updates, members of the Nest Community will need to change their password in order to continue participating in the community. In addition, The Nest community member's avatars will be replaced with generic default avatars. If you wish to revert to your original avatar, you will need to re-upload it via The Nest.
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Brink of a Breakdown
I just have to vent. I am seriously about to crack.
There's a whole bunch of stuff going on with my job that I don't feel like explaining....but it's a pretty big deal and could mean the end of my teaching career. I didn't do anything wrong, my district did, but I'll end up paying the price for other people's incompetence. Either way, I'm SUPER stressed about that.
But, then there is Caroline. I have breastfed her the whole time and that's great. Now that I'm back to work she's refusing to take a bottle....that's fine...Lil did the same thing. BUT, with Lillian she would take a bottle at home and my milk supply was fine when I was home. Caroline is a different story. She won't take a bottle at home and my boobs are empty. I have thousands of ounces frozen, so it's not a big deal that my boobs are empty (I don't feel like pumping at work). If I had to guess I'd say C eats 10 ounces a day....she should have about 3 times that. She has dropped to the 5% for weight, and that was only after a week of me going back to work. Because she's STARVING she has stopped sleeping. Like..she's slept an average of 4 hours a night for the last week...and not in a row. I am literally going to die. I don't know how I'm functioning anymore.
I talked to my pedis office today and we decided I should stop breastfeeding altogether (which I'm okay with because I have 6 months of milk in the freezer), and eventually she'll have to eat- right now she's holding out for the boob, but it's just not doing the trick. They have assured me that she will not starve to death, but I'm pretty worried. If she doesn't have a wet diaper for 8 hours then I'll have to take her to get fluids bc babies dehydrate easily. So, as of right now, C gets no more boob and she's going to be PISSED. I've tried 8 types of bottles and 4 types of sippy cups. I'm going to try formula tonight just to see if she'll take something else out of a bottle that doesn't make her think about boobs, and then if that works I can slowly move her back to milk.
I have 2 events in February that I need to be away for the night and the one I'd like to be away for 24 hours. I need to sleep. I need her to eat. I don't understand why this has to be so f'in complicated. This child has pretty much made it clear that she will be the youngest child in our family.
You don't need to respond.. I know it's not Wednesday but I'm just so frustrated. Ugh.
Re: Brink of a Breakdown
<<HUGS>> I hope everything is straightened out!
C sounds like a very stuborn girl, I hope she knocks it off and eats!
Can N let you sleep for a few hours when he's home before he goes to bed so at least you get a few solid hours? Or can he try feeding her at home with out you in the room? M wouldn't take a bottle from anyone if he could see my boobs.
If you need to vent more let me know. I can't even imagine going through all of that, plus the lack of sleep. I hope C eats for you soon so you have a little less stress to deal with.
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