H's ex wife called and had a lovely chat with him this morning. She ended the conversation with, "In case the girls mention anything, just wanted to let you know that I'm expecting." Awesome. Just fucking awesome.
She just got married on New Years Eve and she's already fucking pregnant!! I broke down in the car on the way to work, like full on ugly cry. I tried so hard to hold it in, but I had to let it go. I hate to admit it, but I am beyond jealous. She already has two daughters and now she's pregnant again with her new husband within months!! Meanwhile, here we are, trying to catch up from the expense of a FAILED cycle. It just sucks, so hard.
And what makes it worse is that I am alone in feeling this way. Since H already has two daughters, he just doesn't get it. He doesn't know how this all feels. I want to take it out on him so badly, but I know that won't do any good.
This is my first official Fuck You IF!
Re: What a shitty way to start the week (pr, not me)
BFP 2: 7/7/2014 Beta 7/8: 115, Beta 7/12: 638, Beta 7/16: 3793, Beta 7/21: 21,625
TTC since 1/13 DX:PCOS 5/13 (long, anovulatory cycles)

Clomid 50mg 9/13 = BFP! EDD 6/7/14 M/C 5w6d Found 11/4/13
1/14 PCOS / Gluten Free Diet to hopefully regulate my system.
Chemical Pregnancy 03/14
Surprise BFP 6/14, Beta #1: 126 Beta #2: 340 Stick baby, stick! EDD 2/17/15
Riley Elaine born 2/16/15
TTC 2.0 6/15
Chemical Pregnancy 9/15
Chemical Pregnancy 6/16
BFP 9/16 EDD 6/3/17
Beta #1: 145 Beta #2: 376 Beta #3: 2,225 Beta #4: 4,548
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TTC 19 months ~Started RE in March 2014~
DH was not ready for IUI so we waited
~Started acupuncture in May 2014~
~~BFP 7/6/14~~~EDD 3/14/15~~It's a girl!!~~
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Natural Cycle (8/7/13)- BFP! Beta #1 (9/10/13): 509 Progesterone: 18.64 Beta #2 (9/12/13): 1118
In Christ alone my hope is found. He is my LIGHT, my STRENGTH, and my SONG!
T-TTC since Dec 2008. PCOS/nonexistant cycles(anovulation) and endo. HSG in '10 revealed both tubes blocked. Lap surgery in Dec '10 to correct. Failed Clomid/IUI and injectable(Bravelle)/IUI cycles so far.
B/w 1/8: betas 17,345, progesterone 25.6
BFP - 10/29/2016!!!, EDD - 7/8/2017
~ S & L 8-25-12 ~

"You know you're in love when you don't want to fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." - Dr. Seuss"I DO NOT love that you think so many things revolve around you. I know you're bitter. I get it. But I'm over your feelings." The best person on the internet ever!
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TTC September 2013 | BFP 11/21/13 | Chart | EDD 8/3/14 | It's a girl!
DD born at 42 weeks 1 day | 8/18/14 5:33am | 8lbs 4oz 20.25in of perfection!
Married August 2009
3 years. 5 losses.
Our rainbow baby boy born 11.16.15
Currently on Metformin and Synthroid
EDD: 6.15.15
Have you shared your feelings with DH? Maybe he is hurting too.
dx: Unexplained IF (mild MFI)
TTC since May 2011, 1 year trying, and then 3 TI, 2 IUI = BFN
IVF #1 (May 2013): Antagonist Protocol:24R, 18M, 15F w/ICSI; 5dt of 2 early blasts, no frosties = BFN
IVF #2 (August 2013): Lupron Stop Protocol:
28R, 23M, 15F w/ICSI; 5dt of 1 partially hatched blast, 7 frosties = BFP
EDD 5/23/14, blighted ovum (6w6d), D&C (8w6d)
FET #1 (April 2014): transferred 2 5d blasts = BFP
C.J. born 01/09/15
DE IVF ER - 12/2/2016 (17R/10F = 8 frosties); FET 1.0 (1/27/2017) - BFP 6dp5dt (EDD 10/16/2017)
FET - transferred two embryos (boy and girl) - Nov 2014 - BFP!
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TTC Since January 2011 - We have bad sperm