Disclaimer- loss discussed
H and I began TTC right after our fall wedding in 2010. I stopped birth control in September, and by Nivember, I knew something was wrong. I hadn't gotten a period, I'd gained weight, I grew weird body/facial hair and I just didn't feel like myself. I saw my OB in Decemer and was diagnosed with PCOS. We weren't ready for fertility meds yet, so we waited.... But eventually started Clomid to make me ovulate in May 2011. Did four rounds, nothing happened. I switched to Femara in December 2011 and began ovulating. But, no babies.
In Spring 2012, we decided to do an IUI cycle. I got pregnant.

I was thrilled and happy, and couldn't wait to meet our baby. Unfortunately, at 17w pregnant, we learned that our baby (our baby BOY) was not growing well. We had an amniocentesis to test for chromosomal abnormalities, but everything came back normal. We decided to do scans every 4 weeks to monitor his growth.
At the first scan, 4 weeks later, our baby boy didn't have a heartbeat. I was far enough into pregnancy that I needed to deliver or have a D&E. I was induced that afternoon and he was born sleeping the next morning. He was beautiful.
The autopsies (we did 2) were inconclusive. We never did find out what took him away. I still don't quite have peace in not knowing, but I've stopped looking for answers. They will not come during my lifetime.
We eventually got back to TTC. Did three more rounds of IUI, nothing. We moved on to IVF. We created 7 embryos. I did get pregnant after my first embryo transfer, but miscarried at 6.5 weeks in June 2013. Over the 6-ish months, we did frozen transfers that were unsuccessful. The last one was in January 2014.
We researched options and chose to switch clinics and participate in a nationwide study. It's not that interesting but did result in an IVF cycle this past summer. From that, we have three embryos- all genetically perfect. Two boys and a girl.

Because of an aspect of the study, the embryos were frozen after testing. The two best quality (I don't know the specific genders) will be transferred next week.
We know they're healthy, so if this doesn't result in pregnancy, Embryo 3 will be transferred to a surrogate. If this does result in a singleton or multiple pregnancy, we will transfer E3 in a few years.
I'd cut off my own left arm to have all this result in 3 babies.

As for our first born, we have his ashes. Just last week, we have officially purchased a cemetery plot where all three of us will be buried. He will be laid to rest, finally, this spring. He will always be my first, the love of my life.
IUI - BFP! Baby boy born still - August 2012IVF - BFP - miscarriage June 2013
FET - BFN
FET - BFN
Switched clinics
IVF with PGD - three embryos created, all healthy - July 2014
FET - transferred two embryos (boy and girl) - Nov 2014 - BFP!
Baby Boy born July 2015
Re: GTKY- my TTC story (long)
Best of luck to you, and beautiful story about the cemetery plot.
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Married August 2009
3 years. 5 losses.
Our rainbow baby boy born 11.16.15
Baby E born: 2/16/2014 at 12:56pm. 5lb 15oz
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Natural Cycle (8/7/13)- BFP! Beta #1 (9/10/13): 509 Progesterone: 18.64 Beta #2 (9/12/13): 1118
TTC since 1/13 DX:PCOS 5/13 (long, anovulatory cycles)

Clomid 50mg 9/13 = BFP! EDD 6/7/14 M/C 5w6d Found 11/4/13
1/14 PCOS / Gluten Free Diet to hopefully regulate my system.
Chemical Pregnancy 03/14
Surprise BFP 6/14, Beta #1: 126 Beta #2: 340 Stick baby, stick! EDD 2/17/15
Riley Elaine born 2/16/15
TTC 2.0 6/15
Chemical Pregnancy 9/15
Chemical Pregnancy 6/16
BFP 9/16 EDD 6/3/17
Beta #1: 145 Beta #2: 376 Beta #3: 2,225 Beta #4: 4,548
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In Christ alone my hope is found. He is my LIGHT, my STRENGTH, and my SONG!
T-TTC since Dec 2008. PCOS/nonexistant cycles(anovulation) and endo. HSG in '10 revealed both tubes blocked. Lap surgery in Dec '10 to correct. Failed Clomid/IUI and injectable(Bravelle)/IUI cycles so far.
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Team Green to Team Pink! Baby A born
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B Born 6.27.13

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TTC#2 4/14
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TTC Since January 2011 - We have bad spermThank you so much for sharing this ILRV... I, of course, am a crying mess at my desk right now because I feel your pain and heartache so deeply. I'm not a religious/spirtitual person, but I'm convinced that our little boys are somewhere looking down on us now.
I am so so hopeful for you and your rainbow babies and am wishing so hard that this it. Big giant squishy hugs to you.
DE IVF ER - 12/2/2016 (17R/10F = 8 frosties); FET 1.0 (1/27/2017) - BFP 6dp5dt (EDD 10/16/2017)
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