“You can have your wishes, your plans, but at the end of the day, it's out of your control" - Gayle Forman
"People talk about escapism as if it's a bad thing... Once you've escaped, once you come back, the world is not the same as when you left it. You come back to it with skills, weapons, knowledge you didn't have before. Then you are better equipped to deal with your current reality." - Neil Gaiman
“You can have your wishes, your plans, but at the end of the day, it's out of your control" - Gayle Forman
"People talk about escapism as if it's a bad thing... Once you've escaped, once you come back, the world is not the same as when you left it. You come back to it with skills, weapons, knowledge you didn't have before. Then you are better equipped to deal with your current reality." - Neil Gaiman
Ack! @abt8113 he's a cutie!! How's he doing? How's your job dealing with your leave? How are YOU doing?
My new bff Gayle Forman!
“You can have your wishes, your plans, but at the end of the day, it's out of your control" - Gayle Forman
"People talk about escapism as if it's a bad thing... Once you've escaped, once you come back, the world is not the same as when you left it. You come back to it with skills, weapons, knowledge you didn't have before. Then you are better equipped to deal with your current reality." - Neil Gaiman
@caseyandlizzie He is doing great! We are starting to work on breastfeeding, and will hopefully start bottles soon. He just needs to learn one of them, so we can get the heck out of here! I'm getting completely impatient, and then I get totally emotional about it. I just want to get home so I can have a little bit of time with him before I have to go back to work. I haven't talked with anyone there, but I'm supposed to start back beginning of July. I really want to have a month at home before. DH has given me permission to quit if I'm not ready to go back. We are planning on moving home next year, so we might just move earlier if I quit. I'm really starting to hate hospitals. I also feel pretty alone since my family left this weekend. I spend all my time at the hospital, and we have asked that people not visit since he is so little and in the nicu. I feel a lot if guilt the nights I don't stay here.
Noah is 7w3d. He's interacting so much more but also changing things up on us a lot. I've bought all new bottles this week because he decided he hated the 4 different kinds we'd been using. Today he decided to snack all day instead of take a full feeding. One day this will get easier, until then the smiles get me through.
@abt8113 I'm glad you are both doing better! I hope he settles on bottle or breast soon so you can take him home and have him all to yourself!
Pip: Our 2 month photo shoot with the dog!
TTC 19 months ~Started RE in March 2014~ DH was not ready for IUI so we waited ~Started acupuncture in May 2014~ ~~BFP 7/6/14~~~EDD 3/14/15~~It's a girl!!~~
@apollo11235 - Are you the next one now the sweetpotatos had her babies? Looking good!
@abt8113 - Have you joined a board or support group for mom's with littles in the NICU? I had a friend who's little one was in there for many months (they knew this before birth), and a support group helped her to cope with some of the struggles like going home at night.
Our last sunset in Hawaii... Honeymoon 2010
Michelle & Michael
Married - August '10
TTC - Since September 2011
@mseale I haven't. I've tried to talk to a few if the moms who have babies there too, but they either aren't interested in talking or their babies go home within the next couple of days. There also aren't a lot of moms that spend a lot of time there. I've talked with a few friends who have had kids in the nicu before, and it does help. One if the doctors today mentioned him going home in a couple of weeks, and I really hope that happens. We had a good day today trying to breast and bottle feed. Hopefully he continues to improve.
@abt8113, sorry to hear you're having such a hard time, but so glad to hear today was a good day!
@mseale, thanks! Am I next? I don't remember who I was/am "in line" after. I know sweetpotatoes and I were pretty close, but we always seemed further away because she was having twins.
"You know you're in love when you don't want to fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." - Dr. Seuss
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"You know you're in love when you don't want to fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." - Dr. SeussMy Goodreads Read Shelf
* After 22 months and 2 failed IUIs, we finally got our BFP *
DS delivered naturally at 41w6d on 4/18/14
My new bff Gayle Forman!
“You can have your wishes, your plans, but at the end of the day, it's out of your control"
- Gayle Forman
"People talk about escapism as if it's a bad thing... Once you've escaped, once you come back, the world is not the same as when you left it. You come back to it with skills, weapons, knowledge you didn't have before. Then you are better equipped to deal with your current reality."
- Neil Gaiman
Married Bio
My new bff Gayle Forman!
“You can have your wishes, your plans, but at the end of the day, it's out of your control"
- Gayle Forman
"People talk about escapism as if it's a bad thing... Once you've escaped, once you come back, the world is not the same as when you left it. You come back to it with skills, weapons, knowledge you didn't have before. Then you are better equipped to deal with your current reality."
- Neil Gaiman
Married Bio
Cinnabun and Junebug say, "Go Wildcats!"
@caseyandlizzie It looks like he's saying "how do you see out of these things, mom?"
Cinnabun and Junebug say, "Go Wildcats!"
My new bff Gayle Forman!
“You can have your wishes, your plans, but at the end of the day, it's out of your control"
- Gayle Forman
"People talk about escapism as if it's a bad thing... Once you've escaped, once you come back, the world is not the same as when you left it. You come back to it with skills, weapons, knowledge you didn't have before. Then you are better equipped to deal with your current reality."
- Neil Gaiman
Married Bio
Watching tv and trying on new sunglasses
dx: Unexplained IF (mild MFI)
TTC since May 2011, 1 year trying, and then 3 TI, 2 IUI = BFN
IVF #1 (May 2013): Antagonist Protocol:24R, 18M, 15F w/ICSI; 5dt of 2 early blasts, no frosties = BFN
IVF #2 (August 2013): Lupron Stop Protocol:
28R, 23M, 15F w/ICSI; 5dt of 1 partially hatched blast, 7 frosties = BFP
EDD 5/23/14, blighted ovum (6w6d), D&C (8w6d)
FET #1 (April 2014): transferred 2 5d blasts = BFP
C.J. born 01/09/15
Married August 2009
3 years. 5 losses.
Our rainbow baby boy born 11.16.15
Sorry that was a book.
Cinnabun and Junebug say, "Go Wildcats!"
Baby Boy born 5.3.15
Pip:
Our 2 month photo shoot with the dog!
TTC 19 months ~Started RE in March 2014~
DH was not ready for IUI so we waited
~Started acupuncture in May 2014~
~~BFP 7/6/14~~~EDD 3/14/15~~It's a girl!!~~
Michelle & Michael
Married - August '10
TTC - Since September 2011
Michelle & Michael
Married - August '10
TTC - Since September 2011
Cinnabun and Junebug say, "Go Wildcats!"

"You know you're in love when you don't want to fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." - Dr. Seuss