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Our tech team has launched updates to The Nest today. As a result of these updates, members of the Nest Community will need to change their password in order to continue participating in the community. In addition, The Nest community member's avatars will be replaced with generic default avatars. If you wish to revert to your original avatar, you will need to re-upload it via The Nest.
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Thank you.
Note: This only affects The Nest's community members and will not affect members on The Bump or The Knot.
Tell me I'm not crazy!
Lately I have been so emotional about L growing up. It seems lke it is going to fly by and I'm so sad that he won't always be my cuddly little man 
I know there's great things about each stage, but still . . .
Ugh, and I'm SO worried that something will happen to him, or to A and me. I know it's not likely, but that's just me. Not the best optimist.
Anyway, he had his 2 month check up and shots today. He screamed when he got the shots but was fine after a minute or so. He still a little guy - 9lbs15oz and 21.75". I looked up the percentiles and he's in the 10-20th in weight and 5th for height! Doc wasn't concerned though, he started out small. And he's meeting all milestones - smiling, cooing, eating well 
Re: Tell me I'm not crazy!
You're not crazy!!!
I had a dream about 2 months ago, where I woke up from a dream or something, and my "baby" was like 3 years old.. and I mised it!!
Then it got worse.... the three year old was my SECOND child!!! I missed them BOTH!!! I almost cried!
HUGS!!!!
You aren't crazy. He is your first child! It's normal to feel the way you do.
BTW, I was 10 pounds 2 ounces at birth.
After 2 rounds of IVF & 2 rounds of FET, we were blessed with identical twin girls!
Well if your crazy then so am I!
The other month when I realized P was too big for his bath tub I teared up. I both celebrate each milestone he reaches and am sad at the same time. I feel silly but I can't seem to help it.
And I am constantly thinking about all the bad things that could happen to him and to me. I'm so afraid I wont get to see him grow up and be there to make sure he's loved the way only a Mom can.
Get this..I even wrote him a letter telling him how much I love him and how much I love being his mother. I sealed it, and put it away for George to give to him just in case something happens to me. I plan on writing him a new one each year. Silly huh?
I think you would be more crazy if you didn't worry especially considering your job. Sometimes I look at the two of them sleeping and start crying and just praying that nothing ever happens to them.
And just try to focus on the now enjoy all the time I do get to spend with my beautiful babies?
Oh yeah.... worry starts at BFP..... and ends at death.
My mom STILL freaks out if I call her "too late" (when she has already fallen asleep) because the phone wakes her up and she is worried that "soemthing is wrong"
I thought I was crazy because I'm the same way!! Thanks to all of you for confirming that I'm not alone!
I worry a lot about not being around to see Sarah's first date or her high school graduation...I figured it just stemmed from the fact that I was 38 (a month shy of 39) when I had her. I worry about car accidents and other things, especially when we travel. I seem to have the worst case scenario in my head each time - especially when we do something "new". But...I love each new milestone that she reaches and she brings SO MUCH joy and happiness to my life! I sound manic!! :-)
I cried the other day when I was switching out her clothes...getting rid of the smaller ones and getting out the larger size...I cried a little bit yesterday because she's no longer on formula, just milk...I guess it's also because we know we're not having anymore kids...this is the last time we'll be going through this stuff. And with her turning 1 on Friday...all bets are off! I've been tearing up for weeks over that!
I cried yesterday when we realized he wears a size 2 (not 1-2) but size 2 diaper.
So we can be crazy together.
Then to make matters just a tad more worse the other night while giving C a bath Paul said it was so sad because he won't remember any of this. He's going to grow up & not likely remember us singing & talking to him when we gave him a bath. We've video taped bath time but it's still a sad thought.
L is doing everything early, so while I'm proud of him and happy for him, I'm so sad that my baby is growing up so quickly.
I'm super paranoid that L is going to die of SIDS. I woke up six times last night just to check on him. We co-sleep so it isn't an issue but I just worry too much. And I was so afraid of driving L that I didn't drive him anywhere until Monday.
Oh my gosh I was so convinced L was going to die from SIDS it made me sick. I'm still paranoid, but not nearly as bad.
Thanks everyone. It really makes me feel better that I'm not the only one that feels like this. I need to just focus on the here and now and cherish it. It's sad to think of him growing up, but it will be so amazing. God help any girl who breaks my little boy's heart
Becki, you are NOT crazy! All of us have the same feelings. I was thinking the other day of what would happen if I died and Rachel never got to know me. Would she be one of those messed up kids with a chip on her shoulder? Would she even care? It's scary. I have fears now that I never had before, and I know they will get worse once she is really here.
And that whole growing up too fast thing...well, I feel like I just got my BFP yesterday and now I'm only about 10 weeks away from delivering! Seeing how fast Mary, Luke, Cameron and all the others are growing up makes it seem like it will all flash before my eyes.
Hang in there and enjoy every minute!