Tomorrow is Beca's 19th birthday (my neice that was murdered in December)...I absolutely can not believe it has been 8 months since she has been gone. My family is celebrating tonight by having a birthday dinner with all her fav foods and a cake. She loved her mom's potato salad and KFC's cole slaw...there will be chicken strips too-my mom is making them. I swear its the only meat I ever saw that child eat. And a chocolate cake with white icing...she never cared about a specfic bakery or recipe...just chocolate with white frosting.
I'm really sad I can't go (they live 2,5 hours away and I got too late of a notice about it to take off work). I think it'll be good for everyone, especially my sister; she still needs so much to get through this. Also, today is the anniversary of my dad's death...I'm pretty much not sure what I'm even feeling right now. My birthday was Monday and I just knew I would have a gloomy day with today (my dad) and tomorrow (beca) coming, but so many of my friends made it such a great day. I really do wish I could be there tonight though...I'll to something tomorrow to celebrate her for sure. Tonight in memory of my dad I think I'll thumb through old pics...he was so jolly; just a big ole country boy (haha thats where I get my looks!), so seeing him in pictures always makes everyone smile...his big belly and jovial smile!
I plan on going to east texas Saturday to put some blue flowers of some sort (his fav color) on my dad's grave, and some shiny happy birthday balloons on Beca's...they are resting in the most beautiful spots...its a small quanit cemetary out in the country, and they are both along the very back, again the fencerow with shade trees...lots of birds and leaves and peaceful things.
Sorry, this may have just been a ramble...it is what it is...just wanted to talk.
M
Re: tomorrow would be her birthday...
Hang in there!
Ditto! Sounds like a lovely way to remember both of them. I'm glad to hear you had a happy birthday!
Aw - hang in there - You are having a rough week!
I think that is lovely that your family is remembering her like this, and it is good for everyone as well.
I'm sorry you can't be with your family tonight, but it sounds like a wonderful way to remember Beca's memory, and your dad's too.
Just know that you are in my thoughts!
In Support of Fellow MB Knottie Stacey081184
I know it has been said before but I am sorry that you are not able to be with your family this week.
I think it is great that you are going out there later in the week to remember them.
:::::HUGS TO YOU:::::