Hi ladies! First off thank you SO SO much for all your thoughts and prayers. I can feel them ![]()
After waiting all weekend and watching the hours click by on the
clock yesterday, I got a call at 5:10pm to tell me 3rd beta/HCG results.
They were 759. Not doubling but slowly climbing (1st was 580, 2nd 653).
They scheduled me for an u/s this morning. We saw the sac and baby in
the uterus. I personally didn't see a heartbeat (by the colors) and the
tech couldn't tell me anything. She just kept asking me how far along I
thought I was. Which meant to me that the sac measured small. I will
not know for sure what is going on until the report later this
afternoon. Right now, the waiting, not knowing is becoming worse than
the possible results, its a rollercoaster. First they told me I m/c,
then I didn't, then it might still be okay. This has been torture! I
am putting faith and trust in my body that it has/is doing the right
thing. I assume the Dr will not do anything until my numbers drop or they are 100% sure there is no heartbeat??
Also, as of now, I do not think we will be going on our Hawaiian vacation in 2 weeks. Simply because Hawaii is my paradise. I don't really want to go there (especially Maui because we were married there) and be mourning and unhappy. I want to keep it as my paradise and would rather experience it again at a happy time. Also, although this has been so tough on us, being around friends and family at this time is exactly what I need (even if it is the holidays).
Please continue to keep us in your thoughts and prayers (especially DH) who is taking this much worse than I expected.
Re: f/u on me...
Thank you for sharing your update. It sounds like you have a really wonderful supportive group. Sending you lots and lots of nestie vibes to you and your family. Stay strong. We are all here for you too.
{{{Hugs}}}
Oh Amy, thank you for the update. You have been on my mind constantly. I am sending you every positive vibe possible...don't lose hope...your baby might just be taking some time to stick!
Even though you were charting it can still take some time for the cells to form an embryo and embed. So here's hoping that there's just a short delay in that process and that your little one is a fighter. Either way, you're doing the right thing, trusting your body and surrounding yourself with loved ones for support. Hang in there!
And when you're ready...Hawaii will be there to make more happy memories.
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I'm sorry this has been such a roller coaster for you and YH.
You're in my thoughts! Take care!
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