I need to get this off my chest...
A co-worker friend of mine is pregnant with her second baby and is going in for her ultrasound this afternoon and another co-worker of mine is going through IVF and will hopefully have a healthy pregnancy as the result of it (she deserves it a million times over)... so what does my body and mind do to me? I thought AF started yesterday (on time) but it appears it ended up being spotting (sorry if TMI), so I start to think... ohhh maybe I am pregnant and run to CVS to take a test and of course it was negative (who are we kidding) and now I feel like $hit. Not sure why I feel like crap... it might be a tad bit of jealousy or just feeling like a complete moron thinking that it could have actually happened (we have been struggling with IF for 4 years). Uhhh I thought I was over all this and had accepted the fact that I may never be pregnant, but now this brought up a lot of feelings and I really do not feel like dealing with them.
Sorry... needed to vent and get it off my chest.
Thanks for listening/reading
A
Re: Confession/Vent
Boo for all the baby-mania around you, I'm sorry
Have you ever read the Taking Charge of your Fertility book? I heard it is supposed to be amazing.
I'm so sorry, honey.
I know that nothing anyone says will make you feel any better. I really hope that your day comes soon, you totally deserve it and you've waited so long.
Your post made me get all misty eyed because I feel for you, I really do.
:::::big hugs:::::
Let me know if you want to talk about anything.
I agree. Don't apologize for how you feel.
I'm sorry.
yeah, so...they don't have a poontatership!
Nice gesture, but most of us infertiles read that book and threw it away a long time ago. Sadly, it can't cure a medical condition that keeps many ladies from getting pregnant. Actually, I think mine is collecting dust in a box in the garage. Anyone want it? lol.
poontater, I'm sorry. I know exactly how it feels when it seems like everyone around you is announcing their pregnancies. {hugs}
I am so sorry (((hugs))) I can sympathize. Even though I love being a mom and wouldn't trade Abby for anything, I still grieve not being able to experience pregnancy. My sister is currently pregnant with her first (and of course they got pregnant first cycle off bcp....of course) and it still stings. Its completely normal to grieve. IF is differently a rollercoaster. I am still waiting to get off this ride!
Feel free to page or email me anytime if you need to vent (email is 517butterfly at gmail dot com).
well said
Sorry, I was just trying to help.