It happened. Last night, in the wee hours after many, many bleary eyed attempts to calm her and get her to sleep, I was rocking her in the rocker and I must have momentarily dozed off, relaxed my arms and there she was...face down on the floor infront of the rocker! She let out a scream that had both J and my mom standing infront of us in an instant. I was absolutely horrified!
Libby was fine. She didn't cry, just let out that scream and then she was scooped up so fast. I think it just startled her more than anything. J and my mom assured me that she must have slipped down the front of the chair and rolled onto her face...like THAT was supposed to make me feel less awful about it. But their point was that she wasn't dropped face first onto the floor from a distance.
I cried hard for 2 hours. My mom rocked Libby back to sleep and placed her in her crib. J held me as I wept. I felt so bad. I cannot describe it. I was literally sick to my stomach and at one point thought I might throw up. I didn't. I finally got myself together. At that time Libby needed her diaper changed. I picked her up, changed her...she smiled at me. I held her close and told her over and over, "I am so sorry I dropped you. I am so sorry." She nuzzled close and wanted to nurse. We fell asleep together on the bed (which is how we've been sleeping for the past 10 days) and all was well.
Still...I cannot believe I dropped my 4 week old infant. I know it happens. I know babies aren't made of glass and that Libby didn't have so much as a bump or scratch from it. I, on the otherhand, have a fracture on my heart because of it. I dropped my baby girl. From now on...no rocking her when I am so exhausted I cannot trust myself not to doze off.....not even for a second.
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Oh sweetie, I'm sorry - I know that must have been awful for you, even though Libby is fine. I know I'd have probably been terrified!
If it makes you feel any better, my mom once put me on a kitchen counter when I was just a couple months old - she only looked away just for a second, and BAM! I went right off onto the floor. Kids are tough, much tougher than we give them credit for...if they were as fragile as it seems like they should be, I suppose the human race would have died out long ago.
Oh Lori, I'm so sorry! That sounds so scary!!
I'm glad that Libby was fine and gave you a big smile before you nursed her.
Please try not to be too hard on yourself!
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Hehe. Classic! At least you didn't fall down a flight of stairs while carrying your infant and have to go to the ER for cat scans! That happened to DH's friend. The baby was fine. Oooops!
Seriously, don't beat yourself up. These things happen. I'm surprised I haven't done the same. I freakin fell asleep while nursing in the rocker AGAIN last night. Arg!
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I'm sorry, Lori. Don't beat yourself up about this. At least you got that parenting milestone out of the way, right?!
My DH fell down a flight of stairs with Marino when he was a baby. DH was traumatized but Marino was over it in 30 seconds.
Being exhausted is tough! Don't be sad anymore, ok?!
Thank you ladies...I hesitated to post this initially because I thought you might judge me. But then I decided to do it because I also thought, "hey...maybe someone else has been there too..." and also wanted to serve as an example to new mamas and mamas-to-be so maybe this won't happen to them.
I appreciate all of your kind words and support...I think I am over it...I still feel bad that it happened but today, with some rest, I realize that these things do happen. And that I am not alone.
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Heh, I once had this conversation with a large group of people at work, and I think every single one of them had a story about being dropped on their head as a child (and most of the moms had dropped their children at some stage). It's practically a rite of passage! No harm done, so don't beat yourself up about it.
And hey, it could have been worse...you could have opened a car door into her like that scene in The Hangover...
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Ain't that the truth. Jaylee has been pulling herself up to walk and "cruise" lately. The other day she tried to get between the couch and the coffee table and smacked her mouth on the table. Blood all over and I started freakin out. She's fine, but still I think it's more traumatic on the parent then it is on the little one.
Ain't that the truth. Jaylee has been pulling herself up to walk and "cruise" lately. The other day she tried to get between the couch and the coffee table and smacked her mouth on the table. Blood all over and I started freakin out. She's fine, but still I think it's more traumatic on the parent then it is on the little one.
Hahaha....see at least you didn't have a bunch of strangers witnessing it.
I know it doesn't seem funny to you now, but it might someday! I was having a garage sale when Ellie was just 5 weeks old and I was busy carrying items outside with a friend. I left her on the couch and at one point came back in for another load and there she was, face down on the carpet! I have no idea how it happened. She couldn't roll over yet (I thought!) and no one else was around. Of course I felt terrible at the time, she wasn't crying or anything and seemed fine but I felt awful.
My friend and I DO laugh about it now though I must admit! We talk with other moms and share all of our "mother of the year" moments and that one is generally mine! There are many others too, it happens!
I'm glad Libby is okay. It's really amazing how tough little babies can be, isn't it?