Bryan is going back to the hospital. His doctor seems to think that him being admitted again is the only way for him to get the 2 units of red cells that he needs.
I was so happy happy about his platelets being higher last week, even though I knew his red cells were still low. Now the excitement is gone, and I am just tired and scared and sad. He has to sit down in the shower because he is so exhausted from the low red cells, combined with nausea from the chemo.
I am so tired. I had to work all weekend and even when I have time off it is spent taking care of DH. I feel so selfish, but I am just so exhausted. This has been going on for months and just when I thought there was some positive movement here we are, going back to the hospital.
I miss my husband, I miss our life together, and I miss feeling strong and happy and confident.
Sorry for venting, I just needed to get it out, and I don't want to take it out on Bryan.
Re: It just keeps coming.
Hi can I have your email? I have been though something similar. Or email me bellau26@yahoo.com
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