It's been hard for me to write this. I've been on the edge of writing for several days and then thought I wouldn't and now here I am.
The doctors pulled chemo from BIL and they hope his?seizures?will let up. Although the chemo helped a few months ago it has stopped having any affect on his cancer. He has several seizures a week and has no feeling in the right side of his body. It sounds like a stroke but the doctors have completely ruled that out and have no idea why he has no feeling in his right side. My sister thinks that BIL mom and stepdad know something else but are holding it back for his sake, as in maybe the doctors gave a time frame. I know this sounds awful to hold something back but his comprehension is lacking and it might be for best to not hear more bad news.
My sister says he has asked to let the doctors leave him alone, after hearing he is being pulled from chemo, so even if they say in two weeks to go back on....he will opt not too. He has mentioned his death and what he wants at his wake several times. My sister thinks that he has known for awhile he was going to die sooner rather than later. He just isn't as open as he usually is and she thinks he is hiding something that he feels inside of him.
So that is the story. Within a few months unless some divine miracle occurs we will lose him. I'm terribly sad and haven't seen him since Christmas because he doesn't take well to visitors and now my sister just wants us to remember his the way he was because he looks so different and acts so different from all of the drugs.
Please keep them all in your prayers. I can't imagine what his parents are going through. My sister calls me and tells me everything and she actually doing pretty well all things considering. We have a small house we are prepping for her to move into so she has a bright outlook on the next step that she knows is coming. Thanks for all of the months of support you have all lent. I'm hoping that maybe for the rest of the year and maybe next year we can do without anymore deaths or severe illnesses. It would be a nice break.?
Re: Update on BIL
Oh wow, D. I am so so sorry. I can't even imagine what it must be like for him, your sister, and his family. Wow.
And I agree with you - I'm thinking you could really use a happy year any time now.
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