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Rough day
Some days are just more difficult than others. Yesterday was the 13th anniversary of the day my father passed away. It was very unexpected and he was very young (not quite 41 yrs ols)... and he and I were not speaking at the time. I had said some pretty horrible things to and about him in the weeks leading up to his death and have been dealing with the guilt ever since. The enormity of my stress level lately (saying goodbye to colleagues, & friends, trouble conceiving, finding new jobs in a new city, etc.) just made it all too much to bear. I cried on and off most of the day, then had my usual Monday night session with my therapist, in which I cried for the entire hour, then talked to DH and my twin sis about it (crying some more of course), and finally, FINALLY started to feel better. In fact, I have a new perspective on it all today and maybe I can begin to forgive myself and him for how it all went down. I hope that none of you ever have to go through something like this, but I guess the moral of my post is, it's good to cry it out to those you love and trust. Sometimes that the only way to get past the pain and move in a healthier direction emotionally.
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~Kelly
Re: Rough day
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I'm so sorry about your Dad! I can't even imagine. Assuming you have a decent therapist, I'm sure s/he has already said this, but I'm sure your Dad knew you loved him. 13 years ago, you were probably a teenager, right? We ALL say nasty stuff to our parents from time to time, especially teenagers. It's completely understandable that this anniversary would upset you on top of your other stresses that you are dealing with. Don't be hard on yourself for having a bad day/week/month over it. It sounds like you have a good support system in place with your DH/sister/therapist, and you have a great attitude. I am sure you will come out of this rough patch even stronger than you already are!
(((HUGS))) I'm sorry you had such a rough day, but I'm glad you're surrounded by people you can talk to.
Here are some happy things for you:
I was 20 and a junior in college, but thanks for that!
Anniversaries of deaths are always hard... especially in a situation like yours. Good job allowing yourself to feel the emotions rather than just pushing them aside... that will probably help with future years!
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Kel! I'm glad you have such a great support system to help you through all of those feelings. I don't think I can say anything that hasn't already been said, but we all do things we regret when we are younger (I really wish I could go back and make a few changes). It seems like you are making good moves toward letting go of some of the guilt and really, that is the best thing you can do.
Everything else will come together! You've got a great DH, great family, and you're making a big move and starting a new chapter in your life. And a whole bunch of octo-b!tches who've got your back
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You rock! Thanks!
*Getting a lil weepy* Luv my octob!tches.
Couldn't have said it better myself.... We have all said things we didn't mean, especially out of anger AND especially to our parents. I went 3 years without talking to my dad and when I finally did some harsh words were thrown back and forth. Do not feel guilty! That was a long time ago and you were young. You have a FABULOUS support system and things will get easier I promise. Everyone needs a good cry here and there, you're only human. Stop being so hard on yourself because you are a good person and have so much going for you. BE HAPPY! Now go pet a puppy and eat some Nutella.....
HUGS! 
I don't have much to add, the others said it perfectly. It sounds like you have a wonderful support system and it's good that you are able to recognize and express these feelings, and not keep them bottled up.
You are going through a lot right now, so take care of yourself and don't be too hard on yourself. Lots of (((HUGS))) your way, and we are here for you any time!!
We have some wise Octob!tches here.
I'll send you a BIG squeeze and some T&P's.