November 2008 Weddings
Dear Community,
Our tech team has launched updates to The Nest today. As a result of these updates, members of the Nest Community will need to change their password in order to continue participating in the community. In addition, The Nest community member's avatars will be replaced with generic default avatars. If you wish to revert to your original avatar, you will need to re-upload it via The Nest.
If you have questions about this, please email help@theknot.com.
Thank you.
Note: This only affects The Nest's community members and will not affect members on The Bump or The Knot.
Our tech team has launched updates to The Nest today. As a result of these updates, members of the Nest Community will need to change their password in order to continue participating in the community. In addition, The Nest community member's avatars will be replaced with generic default avatars. If you wish to revert to your original avatar, you will need to re-upload it via The Nest.
If you have questions about this, please email help@theknot.com.
Thank you.
Note: This only affects The Nest's community members and will not affect members on The Bump or The Knot.
Flameless Friday
It's a beautiful, sunny day in Seattle, but I want an FF anyway, so I'm posting! Fire away, ladies!
Dear self, STOP drinking coffee. It upsets your tummy and stains your teeth. And the coffee at work isn't even good coffee, so it's clearly not worth it. Ugh.
Dear AF, I f'ing hate you.
Re: Flameless Friday
I have been in the same spot on the couch since DH left for work 2 hours ago. I should have just gone back to bed b/c I am in that weird state between bored and tired.
I am too lazy to go up to the attic "craft table" and work on my shower favor tags and thank you notes (I am hand stamping/embossing little feet onto them - to match the shower invites).
I am too lazy to go to the gym...although I think I will just force myself today.
I am glad it is Friday b/c that means I won't have to be home alone for 2 whole days starting tomorrow.
I think I am bored and lonely - which shows itself as lazy and tired.
TTC #1 13 cycles, CP 6/09, TTC #2 1 cycle
CDing, EP'd for 13 months for #1, BFing for #2
Pregnancy Hypertension - inductions at 39w, I grow big babies: DD was 9 pounds 1 ounce 22 inches, DS was 11 pounds even 22 inches - both vaginal deliveries
DH - a few things: 1) stop sleeping practically on top of me, I can't stand it; 2) make your freakin dentist appt already, you're 3 months overdue. And, I'm sorry, but the excuse of, "it's been busy at work," doesn't fly. I will NOT do it for you; 3) there are so many things on your "to-do" list, it's ridiculous. Can you please make things that don't involve watching sports, reading about sports, spending hours on ESPN.com, or playing video games, a higher priority in your life? I can't do every.little.thing around here.
Work - you suck. I'm so ridiculously angry with you right now I could spit. Where is the accountability?!? Why is a certain co-worker exempt from everything? She literally does NOTHING and just got a raise. WTF?! I'm sick of it.
Body - can we start wanting to eat vegetables again? I miss salads and veggies...I don't want the thought of them to turn my stomach anymore. I'd like to have some semblance of a healthy diet, especially NOW that it's like 200,000x more important to me than ever.
Dear body: really another cold? I was so flipping miserable yesterday that I missed class and the due date for one paper which means I need to write another paper to meet the second deadline.
Dog lady - thanks for not calling us back about the dog and instead sending him to a rescue - where thankfully he did get a home but seriously, I'm side eyeing you regardless because you moved to the country and didn't think that maybe that acreage would be good for him. you suck.
Body - Ow, ow, ow. Why have you been sucking the past few days? I work out, I try to sit properly, but my hip/butt hurts a lot. Which then makes me clench my jaw which makes my neck and shoulder hurt. The only thing that works is perc and I try my hardest not to take it during the day to conserve pills. I'm going to burn a hole in my stomach with all the advil I've been taking.
Ugh, I'm thinking of calling the doctor and asking for steroids but that means a week of no sleep.
Dearest Darling Brother - We, Heavyheart and Lumpinmythroat, wish you well on your journey. But we also have to tell you that you are a complete flucking idiot. This woman that you think you have spent 34 years waiting for is presently married to someone else. I know, I know...the two of you are meant to be together but your reckless behavior and lack of responsibility is going to find you cold and alone and homeless when she decides to go back to her husband. It has been months and she hasn't budged. If she really gave a fluck about herself, her ex OR you, she would at least be taking proper steps towards divorce to see to it that the fresh start of your relationship is, at least, legal and legit. I sadly have to inform you that you will no longer be allowed to call me upon the shattering of your heart and my home will no longer welcome you with open arms if you should find yourself stranded. You have flaked out on everyone that loves you and I hope with all my might that this time you don't get burned because after what you have put me through, I wouldn't piss on you to put the fire out. I love you dearly but I am cutting the cord. Farewell and godspeed.
Dr. D - Research? Really....do you not know how large of a black hole goo.gle can send you in? I spend hours upon hours upon hours reading, looking, hoping and it all sends me into a circle like a dog looking for a spot to lay down. I am frustrated that our appointment today got rescheduled but I do respect the dead so I guess I will let it slide. But May 17th, it's on like donkey kong and I will be there with bells on with my tablet full of research and questions and I wont leave until I have every single answer that I want from you. I hope you are ready.
Body-I am giving you one last chance. I am doing WW and sticking to it for one month (which is what I have til the cruise...) ONE MONTH! If you do not lose weight-I'm just going to get huge and wear mumus. I will! You watch!
BM... I can see right through you... (although a day later...) And here, I
DH-please PLEASE mow the lawn! It's as big as -no, my office is bigger. I could do it, but I do enough around the house. It'll take you 2 secs. Also, will you wipe the counter every so often-like when you make a mess on it? My piles drive you crazy? Your messiness drives me crazy. Love ya! And, no, buying a goat to eat the grass doesn't count. No goat til after our vacas, remember?... no dog, no goat.
Schools... I want to return to teaching, I do (I think?). Your number crunching and cutbacks really make it hard for me to make this jump, esp right now. Gah!
Cancer-please leave my MIL alone and anyone else's relatives, etc... on this board, site. You're nasty and you dress funny! (Not my MIL...I'm just trying to be mean)
Body: I know I've put you through long hours for over a week, but please catch up, I'm tired of being tired and I have unpacking to do and a baby to take care of.
Neela: get it together and stop trowing up on the ivory carpet. We're home, no more travel.Relax!
Dear J - Don't start to think you can play me like you play your mom. If you were as nice to me as you were this morning on the daily, you wouldn't need to try to play me.
Dear Cough - FU and furthermore, FU
Dear self - stay on track, please. You have 2 weeks to fit into your shorts!
Dear hair - you suck, so you're getting colored.
Dear Thumb/Wrist - Please, please, please try not to be so painful. You'd think the cortisone shots (yes that is plural) would have helped but it didn't. It's impossible to wear the splint while at work so the next four days are going to be painful if you don't start feeling better.
Dear GM - You did enough micro-managing last homestand so can you please be a smidge nicer this go round? Yes I understand you want to save money but by cutting employee hours you're not solving anything. You're going to cut yourself too thin and then you'll lash out on me for not getting the job done to your standards.
Dear House - Please clean yourself, thanks!
Dear AF - Please stay away for a good reason!
Dear Self, You have lost a few lbs this week. Please continue to eat better and walk daily so that next week we can have the same results.
Dear DH, let me have a crisis day all to my self. It isn't a competition on who is having a worse day. If I don't feel good you don't have to have a worse illness. If I'm pissed off about my job you don't have to have a worse issue with your job. Just get me flowers, make dinner for me and tell me it is going to be ok.
Dear work, adios amigo. Hope this outsourcing/offshoring stuff saves you all the money you hope it does and is worth the cut in service that will be proviced.
Dear male co-workers: Planning ahead really isn't that hard. Maybe you should try it. And no, I don't mind covering one Friday of work for one of you but I wouldn't have to be here if you'd paid attention to the memo that was sent out in JANUARY informing each of us when our scheduled Fridays are to work. Luckily our office manager is female, and therefore capable of planning head, so she's taken revenge for me and 2 of you will have to work back to back Fridays in the fall while I only have to work 1!
Dear self: Ok. Enough is enough. Yes, you've gotten the snacking back under control but get on the g*ddamn treadmill. Obviously you are not going to be svelte in Hawaii, but if people start asking you if you're having twins you're going to cry. Get a move on woman!
I tried writing this in the normal dear___manner but it didnt work so here goes.
Yesterday I got into a fight with a co worker about stupid stuff and just broke down and started crying. I spent the rest of the day in my office crying, even when my boss came in to "talk" to me. I picked up M from DC and sat in the rocker until Matt came home at 10 rocking my sweet sleeping baby and crying. On Fridays Matt leaves before I do and he also takes M to DC everyday. This morning I made him 10 minutes late because I refused to let M go. As he was walking out the door I sat on the couch bawling my eyes out for a half hour. I felt like he was taking her away from me and that I am the worst mom in the world becuase we can not afford for me to stay home with her. I have been a complete zombie at work today, have done no work at all and have just cried with my door closed.
I new going back to work would be hard. I hated my job before leaving and despise it now. I cant not work, I am the breadwinner. Matt only works part time. We just can not live off of his paycheck. He gave me the most pitiful look when he left this morning. I am usually so strong, but I hurt so bad. I just want to hold my daughter.
I'm late to this as usual, but:
Work - really? You make so many empty threats about removing problem employees, and then when said employee effs up, NOTHING is done. It's frustrating, and really makes you look like the crappy employer that you are. There are a many good employee who are looking to leave (myself included), and when that happens, you will be sol. And upper mgmt - stop being so effing two-faced and actually make a decision one in a freakin' while!!!
Body - Please just cooperate once and let AF arrive so I don't have to beat you into submission by having a medicine-induced AF. K, thx.