Hi ladies.
Yesterday was the longest hardest day of my life. I am slowly coming to grips with what has happened. I have a skin disease and before we even got pregnant we talked to a genetic counselor. She told us that if I carry a boy, its a VERY slim chance I will carry to term. If I did, the baby could still have died within the first few years of life. So we are thinking baby was a boy. My dr is getting a bunch of tests done on it to see if we can find out why this happened.
DH got to see baby, by mistake. I was given meds to help induce. They were these pills that get inserted vaginally. After my second round of pills, (12 hours of contractions later) I wanted something for the pain. They tried to give me a morphine shot and I didnt feel it. They gave me a shot of femrol and I went dizzy and thought I peed myself. DH checked and it was baby coming out. The whole process took around 16 hours. THey all told me that was insanely fast for what they expected. I was so proud that I really delievered baby naturally, which is what I wanted anyway. I just didnt think I had the power/ strength too.
I had a lot of close friends and some family come visit. We had 24 hour visiting access since we were coming home with no baby. It was almost surreal. I felt attached to baby but once it was out of my body- not so much. DH also found out the features of baby. My dr thought it was just a fleshball and it was really a baby. So DH asked the nurses what baby looked like. Baby had all fingernails/toenails and a full head of hair. Its really amazing looking back.
We have decided that as soon as I heal we are trying again. Thats all DH kept telling me. I think thats how he coped with this whole thing. The nurses asked us if we wanted baby baptised and if i wanted to hold/ see baby. I opted not to connect myself at all.
Thank you ladies for being so supportive. When I was in the hospital I was thinking about all of you too. Ill be here still. I just wish I could figure out how to delete the countdown on the bump.
Talk soon.
Re: update....again.
*hugs* I am so sorry you had to go through all that.
Glad it could be done naturally though.
I wish you a speedy recovery. best of luck that your next baby will be a sticky one.
*hugs*
What a tough day. You are a strong gal! I am so glad you and your DH are able to support each other and are still ready to try again for a baby once you are healed up.
Hugs, Ts and Ps!!