Hey ladies--
I have so been MIA since let's see, the almost four months now since I delivered my precious daughter Amayah! She looks like DH's twin, but ironically is such a chip of my old block. Amayah is determined to go places and has already achieved her first huge milestone of rolling over! So DH and I about to really get on top of baby-proofing our apartment. Plus, she's gaining weight steadily (for some of you whom may remember in my birth story, she was under five pounds with low birth rate, not a preemie due to my high-risk pregnancy). She is every bit our angel and miracle baby and I no longer can imagine how my life was without her! AW (I will post pics soon)!
So, having returned back to work for 7 weeks now (I'm counting every single one), you can imagine how my separation anxiety has been. I'm so fortunate that Amayah has been in the care of my grandmother-in-law who stays with my MIL, and they live only 15 minutes away from us. However, because we flew Grandma in from Jamaica, she must return in January after six months, and then, we'll have to find new childcare for Amayah.
But, work has been no cakewalk for me, as I'm really unhappy with my job--more so than the separation because I've made peace with being a working mom. In my ideal world like most mothers, I would love to work part-time, but that's rarely an option when I want to also advance my career to web editing from magazine publishing what I'm currently employed in. Basically, I've been at my job for almost 4 years and have been offered no promotion to a junior level editor because of every other excuse management can think of--budget, economy, meanwhile they have quietly promoted a couple people who they feel they need to "invest" in to further the publication. I call it BS and I'm desperate to leave, interviewing everywhere I can. I actually had an interview this week (which was internal within my company) with a major website and it went well, so I'm praying the right opportunity opens up for me. Meanwhile at the misery-ville of my current job, they have allowed me to change my hours, (leaving at 5p.m. rather than 6p.m.) so I can actually pick up Amayah and get settled at home before 8p.m.
So, in between my life as a new mommy, of working, chores, errands, and oh yes, being a wife and dating my DH when we can, life has been so fulfilling and I adore motherhood. Plus, did I mention Amayah shocked me by beginning to sleep almost through the night at just two months! I know, any of you new sleep-deprived moms may want to throw hot coffee on me now
But, I'm still exhausted by all the new demands--but the breastfeeding, constant bottle washing, diapering is all worth it when Amayah gives me her huge, gummy smile when she sees mommy! I'll try not to be a stranger anymore if I can help it, because of course mommyhood leaves little time to Nest! Hope everyone is doing well!
Re: **Mommy update: My new life!**
Nice to hear from you, MsWifey
Glad to hear that Amayah is doing well. Having a job you hate sucks, but you are doing the right thing by interviewing and putting yourself out there. Some thing has to come up.
It's good to see you on here. I hope you post pics soon.
Our New Home! Renovation Underway! The Law Nest
TTC Journey
7/2008 - begin TTC
7/2009 - began charting
9/2009 - Dx Endometriosis
10/2009 - HSG/SA (Normal)
12/2009 -6/2010 - Lupron #1 & 2
Sep-Nov 2010- Clomid Cycles #1&2 = BFN
Dec 2010 - Clomid Cycle #3 = BFP (1/11/11);no h/b (2/10/11); D&C (2/23/11)
5/11-6/11 - herbal tea regime = BFN
7/24/2011- herbal tea regime = surprise BFP
Hey Topanga--
Yes, I remember our past GTG meeting! Glad to see you still lurk around here. I appreciate your empathy. I feel like as much as I mentally prepared for how hard it would be going back to work, it still felt like a smack in the face. You're right--I am grateful, my managers agreed to my slight schedule change because although I'm exhausted from the commute, plus 15-min drive home, getting settled, etc., it's made a big difference no longer working until 6p.m. But, there's nothing worse than hating your job and you have a new baby at home
So, I continue to job hunt and recently interviewed for an internal position that would be such a great move for me, but just waiting on the verdict. I will keep everyone posted for sure!