So, this weekend was just H*ll. My grandfather has pancreatic cancer (newly diagnosed), and H's cousin got married this weekend, so we were in our hometown.
The wedding was beautiful, and H's family is wonderful. So many of them came up to me at the wedding to tell me how me and my family is in their thoughts and prayers. Even the bride and groom gave me hugs and said how sorry they are for what my family is going through.
My grandfather, on the other hand is not doing so well. In the last 2 weeks, he has lost a ton of weight. He was never heavy to begin with, so it's even more noticeable on him. His skin has a yellow tint to hit, and he is in a top of pain. He can't stand up for long periods of time (long being 10 minutes), and isn't supposed to drive, even though he's stubborn and does drive sometimes. I was over there a few times this weekend, and everytime I left, I dissolved into tears. That is where my wonderful H came in. He was there all weekend to pick up the pieces of my broken heart. I hardly slept all weekend, and only slept 3 hours last night.
The one blessing this weekend in regard to my grandfather is the outpouring of love our family has received. I went to church with him, grandma, and my mom on Sunday, and it made me cry some more. So many people came up to me to tell me how much they love our family and are praying for us. When I got home last night, I had 3 e-mails from people that usually go to their church but weren't there on Sunday telling me the same thing. I love feeling loved!
Also, I just got a call from my dad. Grandpa was supposed to start chemo today in Cleveland. They ended up not doing chemo because his billy rubin (I have no idea how to spell that) was at 18. It's supposed to be at 10. They are keeping him in the hospital at least over night, maybe 2 nights to run tests. They don't think it's a blockage, but don't know what's going on. Might have to put in a stint tomorrow. We'll see how my sanity holds up this week with my SIL having a double mastectomy on Thursday.
Thanks for listening to my vent!
Re: The story that lead to H getting the aww earlier
My thoughts and prayers are truly with you and your family.
*bilirubin
fyi: Yellow skin + high bilirubin = jaundice.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. It is wonderful that H and his family are so supportive. We get so many "crazy IL" posts on here, it's good to be reminded of the good people.