Lorne has been really busy with school and some TA stuff and homework and revising a paper this week, and I've been alone with the kids for most of the day for the last four days. Today Will decided he wasn't going to take a nap. After three hours of fighting him, I gave up. We're going to dinner with a friend in a few hours and I needed to give Evie a bath and I need to take a shower and I'd wasted three hours with him, so I gave up. I feel like a failure. I'm also afraid that he's going to be a little shiit at dinner and I'll just take him home early, and I don't even want to go now, but Lorne wants me to try since our friend is only in town a few times a year.
I'm already feeling like a failure because I got rejected from my first show last night. I know that one show in the many I've applied to and been accepted to isn't a huge deal, and it's one I'm not local to and I was kind of on the fence about anyway, but it hurts.

Re: can I vent for a minute?
I'm sorry. If Will is a shiit, can Lorne take him home? Or maybe you get some Noisy time tomorrow? It sounds like you are due.
It's totally the show's loss. Unless the show was in SC, then it's my loss.
ETC typoooooos.
I'm sorry Noisy. I understand being hurt about the show. We always focus on that stuff it seems.
I'm sorry Will was giving you a hard time.
It's crying and getting out of bed and leaving his room. I wouldn't care if he sat in his room and read quietly or something. When he just does the crying it's fine, and when it's just getting out of bed it's fine, but it's almost never just one of those, it's both combined with trying to leave his room. Sometimes if we just tell him to go to bed and hold the door closed for a minute he goes to bed, but today was one of the days when telling him to go to bed just escalated his behavior to the point where he was hitting and crying and laughing maniacally (and sometimes all three). This is the first naptime this week he's been like this (though there were several last week with the loss of pacifiers) and it was far worse than last week. He ruined the cover of his favorite dinosaur book at one point; while I was feeding Evie he came out and hit George. I know one day of no nap isn't going to do either of us in, it was just incredibly frustrating and I really didn't know what to do. He tried to hit Gracie after I gave up and when I gave him a time out he hit me. He's usually really good about not hitting (us or the cats). I don't know what got into him.
Anyway, I ended up going out and Will fell asleep pretty much immediately after I got on the freeway (after saying, "Mommy, I'm kind of tired"). Of course. Maybe next time I'll just throw him in the car when he gets like this. He was really good at the restaurant too, except that they have this little graveled play area with shovels and trucks and stuff, and there were some *** older kids that were throwing gravel at each other. When he joined in I told him to stop, and he wouldn't, so he had to come back to the table. He also knocked a kid down, but the kid was chasing him and was almost twice his size, so I didn't say anything. I kind of wanted to knock him down too.
In the car on the way home he told me he was sorry he threw gravel, so that was nice. And Lorne ended up not going back to the lab to work on his paper, so he did Will's bedtime routine and he went down immediately.
Thanks for the interwebs hugs. I'm feeling a lot better now. And the restaurant was across the street from a store that features handmade accessories. I went in and looked around and I think my stuff would work well there, so I think I'm going to attempt to pitch my stuff to them after the holiday show craziness dies down.
Yup, that's pretty much it. He's super awesome and funny and really well behaved most of the time, but when he's not...holy crap. It's like someone replaced my nice little boy with Satan's child.
I could have written these same posts at various times, so I offer my internet hugs as well. Today he's being an angel, so that helps. Here's hoping for a well behaved weekend for you.