So I had been given strict instructions from my doc to TTA from the day (around Oct 20th) I found out about my CIN-Cervical Intraepithelial Neoplasia-grade III (sorta mentioned here: http://tinyurl.com/2uaq5rb and here: http://tinyurl.com/36e6f6t) and the day of surgery, which had been scheduled for Dec 22nd - thank you again Summer for checking on me that day! Since I hadn't seen AF and had never seen a positive OPK, I didn't bother with alternate methods of BC.
Around the mid-November, I sought advice from Whit, Tania, and Stacey about getting a prescription for Provera. I had been having what I thought were symptoms of AF for weeks but never saw her ugly face. I called the doc about Provera and she agreed to prescribe it but she said that she wanted me to take it immediately because she didn't want me to have AF during surgery. I picked up the Provera and while in the drug store, decided to pick up a PG test. I just wanted to make absolutely sure I wasn't PG before taking the meds.
So I POAS the next morning, Dec 1st, around 5am. I was so anxious to take the Provera that I didn't have any emotions at all about the PG test. There wasn't a doubt in my mind that it would be negative. Well low and behold, two pink lines appeared almost immediately. I was in complete shock. Because I had peed in a cup, I immediately ripped open the second test and dipped that one too. 2 BFPs. I yelled for Rob to come in the bathroom and check to see if I was crazy. Poor guy was still 90% asleep, stumbling into the bathroom and trying to comprehend the lines and instructions. All he could manage was "well looks like you're pregnant." Being the paranoid psycho that I am, I bought 2 different brands later that day including a digital one and they were all BFPs.
We had our first appt on Dec 9th. I was afraid that the doc would a) tell me that there was no baby and that all of this had been a figment of my imagination or b) scold me for getting pg when I had been given strict instructions not to and tell me that I needed to terminate my pregnancy. Fortunately, neither happened. She said that they would continue to check on my CIN throughout my pregnancy to make sure it's not spreading. I will have the surgery a few weeks/months after I deliver.
We had to use the sonogram date to determine how far along I was since my LMP date was pretty useless (Aug 11th). At that appt they said my EDD was Aug 2nd but yesterday's sonogram put me at July 29th so now I don't know what date to use.
To answer your question: It was VERY hard not telling you girls but I only hid it from you for 4 weeks, not 9. I was well into my 5th week before I found out. I even went to Antigua and drank alcohol every single day and ate tons of seafood not knowing I was PG. I didn't tell my parents until Christmas day, which was totally worth the wait.
To my TTC ladies: It can and will happen. Mine happened when I least expected it. I did it without AF, without charting regularly, and without ever seeing a positive OPK. Keep the faith. I will continue to keep each of you in my thoughts and prayers. {{{hugs}}} I'm not gonna lie, I'm terrified 24/7 that something bad is gonna happen but I'm trying to stay positive.
Summer - I'm sending you a PM so check in a little bit.
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Zoey Emma 08.18.10
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That is an amazing story and I am sure inspiring to anyone TTC!!! Again congratulations we are due around the same time it will be so nice to have someone going through al lot of the same things!!
our board seems to get pg in 2's. i can say it's really great to have someone pg around the same time. jess and i text eachother questions and updates and it's so comforting sometimes when your emotions are all over the place (during AND after)!
Zoey Emma 08.18.10
Woah. You've been going through a lot! I'm so sorry about the CIN and hope it stays stable until you can have your surgery.
I know how hard it is to start off your pregnancy on a bad note, with lots of worry about the baby. The best thing I learned is that I can never get that time back, and worrying isn't going to change anything -- so I had to move on from the things I couldn't change and do nothing but love on my little one from there on out. I'm sure you've made the best decisions possible since finding out, and that's all you can do. That's all we can do as parents: make the best decision based on the information that we have at the time.
Many, many congratulations; and wishes for a happy and healthy 31 weeks!
ITA. I love that Summer and Campbell are going through the same things. I was wondering how far along you are, Pooks, because I figured you two couldn't be too far off (that's why you need a ticker too, Pooks!)
Oh my gosh, don't worry about it! Please! I'm ok. I've had a lot of support through this. I'm still worried for baby #2 not being full term but I'll cross that bridge if/when I get there.
And what are we? Like 2 days apart???
wow-talk about meant to be! Dani I am so excited for you! I know its scary, especially these first few weeks (and heck you will still have bouts throughout-I still do), but just have faith that everything is going to be fine.
I am sorry about your CIN, but I am glad that there is a plan for treatment once LO is here.
Based on a 28 day cycle I have edd of July 25 but if I O'd whe I think I did it would be a couple of days earlier, buuut I might get induced at 39 weeks so I suppose my answer is I really still don't know LOL but my Dr is sticking with July 25 as far as the ultra sounds have looked so far.
You have PM back. Again, so happy for you! Praying for a healthy rest of your 9 months! ?
Ditto Rebecca and Jess, I love having Rebecca and Jacob just a day ahead to compare notes and ask questions, etc. so it will be nice that Baby Dani and Pocket Pookums are close (and Baby Mo and Baby WCT).?
Congrats Dani!! How exciting! I still come in and out of nervousness. How are you feelng? Have you had any morning sickness, etc?
We'll have to have another gtg before this time next year, it can be a big playdate gtg! I'll start sending sticky vibes immediately. Here's to a happy and healthy 9 months!
I'm a breastfeeding, baby wearing, cloth diapering, co-sleeping, anti-CIO Mommy
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Our bean was born on 05-19-11
BFP on 2.2.11
Yes, definitely had morning sickness. I'm totally bloated and my boobs hurt 24/7. I can't sleep on my stomach (my favorite sleeping position) because it hurts my boobs so bad. Every time someone hugged me yesterday-when I told them I was PG- I wanted to cry because of the boob pain. Not fun!
I'm all about a GTG with the LOs. Hopefully Leesh will have a baby too and can join!
Ha! Good luck with that. I should have told you to enjoy it while you could. I am totally a stomach sleeper and wasn't able to sleep on my stomach due to my boobs, then my stomach. All I kept saying throughout my entire pregnancy was that I couldn't wait to have the baby so I could sleep on stomach again. I literally cried on multiple occasions because I was so uncomfortable NOT being on my stomach. Guess what? I had the baby and I still can't sleep on my stomach because my boobs get so full at night it's STILL uncomfortable. It's been a year and I still miss it bad.
Zoey Emma 08.18.10
Dani!! Congrats!! That's so exciting. I totally agree I love having someone to text and ask questions and get support from! Use each other, lol! I knew I was pregnant because of how bad my boobs hurt, it was crazy. I'm also a stomach sleeper and couldn't do it. Get a body pillow, it helped me feel like I was sleeping on my stomach. It's totally normal to worry about everything when your pregnant, I did till I had her in my arms! Yay for summer babies!
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