Hi Hormones, you're stupid.

Being a woman can suck sometimes.

Last night, after fighting with my sister it just set me into an awful mood. Then my mom called and asked what was wrong, so I hesitantly told her about the fight...which she just listened for the most part, laughed at me (because I was reenacting the whole "you wanna see tone, I'll give you tone" speech) but then she started drilling into me about apologizing to her, about driving into work today,etc..and I just had it. My fuse was spent.

Then I couldn't stop dwelling on the fact my SIL hasn't called me back or emailed a response back to my emails or calls asking how she is doing. I get that she may not be ready to talk, logically. I really do. But I also am saddened that I'm not high enough on her list to talk to at all. Maybe she's made because I didn't call her cell phone and only called their house phone and BIL's cell (I knew he wasn't working only after I left the message at the house & H told me that BIL drove SIL into work; hence I didn't want to disturb her @ work so I just emailed her) I just feel like she hates me. Maybe one of them (BIL or SIL) will call me today when they receive the flowers I sent. But probably not. I am going to call her this afternoon when I leave work I think. But anyways, after my mind thought all of this,  I cried myself into a stupor thinking I'm an awful sister, daughter, and sister in law. WTF!?!?! 

Poor H. He didn't really know what to do. But he did exactly what I needed him to do...gave me about 10 minutes alone and came upstairs and just cuddled/hung out while I watched the food network and then ended up wanting reeses pieces, which I bought this morning.