Baby Sofie passed away this morning at 5am cradled in her parents' arms after 14 wonderful, snuggly hours at home. Her mom's note today paints the most amazingly serene picture, so different from her 20 days of hospital tubes and machines.
Part of me is beyond mad. Sh!t like this is not supposed to happen. Sh!t like this is not supposed to happen to good people like Lori. She never even had a chance to hear her baby cry, or see her open her eyes. It fvcking sucks. It's not fair.
But another part of me realizes that Sofie has made an incredible difference in this world in just 20 days. She has brought together old friends, shown us all how deep love runs, made us all think about things a little differently. I cherish the snuggly moments with my kids even more. I haven't snapped at my toddler in over a week - I can't. I can't get that mad at him for being a kid, not when Lori never got that chance with Sofie. I don't groan and moan when Maddy wakes up at 6:20... I embrace her and enjoy every moment.
I hope I can honor Sofie with my days. She deserves to be honored. I feel honored to have been allowed to share in her life through her mother, who has expressed her feelings so honestly and amazingly, and I hope her words will help to bring her peace as time goes on.
All this from a little girl I never even met. Be at peace now, Sofie, until you and your parents can continue your snuggles sometime down the road.
Re: She's gone (warning: sad)
Michele
The thought of the situation is just so unbearable. You, Sofie and her family are in my thoughts & prayers
this breaks my heart
sofie and her family will be in my thoughts. we should all hug our loved ones a little tighter in sofie's honor.
Rest is peace, Sofie - you were loved.
*hugs* Michele. I'm glad that you're able to take something positive away from this experience. I know you've been having a rough time and I'm glad this has given you some perspective. It's amazing what an impact such a brief life can have.
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