This morning was nothing less than traumatizing. My lady parts hurt so bad right now. Unfortunately, the doc saw some spots during the colposcopy that weren't documented as being noticed during my October appt so she ended up doing another biopsy and I now have to wait a week. I bled everywhere - all over the table and floor. I cried hysterically while laying there as she poked, prodded, pushed, and scraped. I couldn't stop thinking about the possibility of being told that I have cancer. To make me feel better, the doc brought the doppler in and let me listen to my baby's HB. She told me that there's a very good chance that I'll be absolutely fine - have the baby, have the LEEP, and carry another full-term baby in the future. But she also gave me the worst case scenerio, which included a C-section and hysterectomy at Johns Hopkins. ![]()
I told her that I was planning to go back to work today but she said she didn't want me to and wrote me a note. So now I'm home on the couch. She also told me no sex for 2 weeks. Sweet for me. Bummer for Rob. I just hope that my anatomy scan is supposed to be external next week because I don't think I'll be allowed to have an internal.
If you're still reading, thanks for listening. I'm a mess right now. Very scared and nervous.
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That sounds like a horrible morning. I hope you get good results back. At least Hopkins is a great hospital should anything go wrong. {hugs}
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Oh no I am so so sorry!!
I am glad your Dr is honest with you but that would put me in a state similar to you. So many hugs your way, if you ever need to talk at all please let me know. I know I only had the LEEP once but I have known so many other people that have had similar issues (just because I seriously will talk about this with any one and low and behold it is so much more common than a lot of women think - even among my own friends) and went on to have baby after bay and never had anything more than a cerclage (if even that).
Again I am just so sorry you had to go through that I hope the hearbeat was able to lighten your mood even a little.
oh dani! i'm so sorry
positive vibes for good test results and for feeling better! i wanna come down there and give you the biggest hug.
fwiw, my anatomy scan was external.
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I'm so, so sorry you've had such a rough morning, Dani!
Hope you're feeling a little better now. I'm glad that you got to take the day to stay home-- hopefully you can just get some rest and relax for a while. Maybe watch some mindless TV? Will & Grace season DVD's are my live-saving escape from worrying and stress, haha.
In all seriousness, though, I hope you start feeling better soon. Sending you all kinds of healthy vibes and keeping you in my prayers. I know there's not really anything I can do, but if you think of anything at all, just let me know!!
{{hugs}}
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I'm sorry!
Lots and lots of thoughts and prayers that you get the best case scenario all the way around!
Thank you ladies. I'm feeling a little better physically. Still slightly sore though. I treated myself to some Panera for lunch.
I forgot to mention that things are doubly stressful because my dad begins his radiation tomorrow. I'm worried about him just as much if not more than myself.
{hugs} to both you AND your dad.
Seeing him go through radiation will be tough, but hopefully not quite as tough as you might be imagining. I really thought that it would be harder on Mom than what it was. Just try to keep focused on the end result and know that this WILL help him!
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Oh Dani, I'm sorry it was so terrible and you're in pain. That sounds like an absolutely terrible experience, makes me want to cry for you!
No matter what, it sounds like this baby is coming out safely, so focus on that. It sounds like you're in good hands. We'll just keep praying for the best case scenario - she did say there's a very good chance!!
And my anatomy scan was external too, I'm sure yours will be, look forward to that!
And I read all the other posts and I'm sorry about the added stress of your dad's radiation
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oh and anatomy scan is for sure external. No worries dear!
Hugs Dani!!!