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Our tech team has launched updates to The Nest today. As a result of these updates, members of the Nest Community will need to change their password in order to continue participating in the community. In addition, The Nest community member's avatars will be replaced with generic default avatars. If you wish to revert to your original avatar, you will need to re-upload it via The Nest.
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Thank you.
Note: This only affects The Nest's community members and will not affect members on The Bump or The Knot.
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Where to even begin... I'm having a horrible night where everything is coming to a head, so I'm sorry that I'm just spewing this all out.
I feel like I'm starting to lose it. This is so insane. We just had our bajillionth over 6.0 earthquake in the last 4 days, C is at work in a gas mask making sure aid-workers who arrive here aren't radiated, they're pulling bodies out of rubble 15 miles south of my house, moms are crying in fear and begging the base to send them home, I'm sitting in my giant perfectly unharmed house with no heat while it's snowing outside and thousands of people have no shelter or blankets or warm clothes or food and there's too much red-tape and confusion to do ANYTHING real to help NOW when it's most needed, and then- oh yeah, a nuclear power plant is melting down 250 miles south of here. How much is one place supposed to take? Like seriously, I want to scream right now.
As much as I try to squash it away, there's a voice in my head that keeps saying, "I want to go home." But then I realize going home won't help anything. That's not going to make this go away. I can go home and be safe and sound, but northern Japan will still be destroyed. Nothing will change that. This isn't a disaster we can work to fix and fight our way through and then go back to life as normal once it's all over. There's no "over" in sight. There is no more normal here anymore. That stupid wave washed it away, and it's not coming back for years- maybe never. I just don't know what to do. It's so overwhelming, scary, heartbreaking, nauseating, and just... crap. Total crap.
And then I get pissy with myself, because WTF am I complaining about? How lame am I that I'm breaking down over being perfectly fine in the midst of people who DESERVE to be breaking down, yet are saint-level calm and composed? I just never could have imagined this happening. And there's nothing to do about it.
Patty, I agree with PP. I also think you can't allow yourself to minimize that you are going through a natural disaster. Just because your house is intact doesn't mean you haven't experienced trauma. I don't know how you would, but make sure you take care of yourself as best you can.
I wish there were something more we could do.
Thank you guys. I know I need to sort of chill and be aware of and ok with what I'm feeling right now. There's a lot I could write, but I'm sort of just exhausted so I think I'll let it be. Thank you for letting me vent. This is really the only place I feel comfortable doing so at this point, and it helps a lot to get it out. Everything you guys have said makes sense, and I'll keep it in mind. Thank you.
I'm sorry for utterly and completely taking over the CW.
ETA: Kim just pointed out to me that it's not Wednesday for you guys, so this isn't the "official" CW. So now I don't feel as bad about taking it over. :P
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Aw P, hugs! I'd echo what everyone else said here. You are going through some crazy ***. Never feel guilty over emotions. They're what make you human and God made you that way anyway. This is a scary thing for anyone to go through, no matter how little or how hard they've been hit by it.
Anyway, you guys take care of yourselves. How is C dealing with it? I wonder if it's different for him because he's busier? ((((((hugs)))))))
Thank you guys. I'm feeling more pulled together after a loooong night of sleep.
Passanie- C is doing alright so far. He's very busy and I think in kind of an adrenaline/"go" phase, so I hope things won't start to hit him harder once things start to slow down. We shall see, but for now he's dealing just fine.