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Hard night...
I'm not really sure why...well i know why...but I had a horrible night last night 
I went of facebook and posted a comment on one of my friends pictures. Then i mistakenly clicked the picture and it went to another picture on her wall..and it was of me and my dad kayaking down the river near wear i used to live. He loved that place so much and it just broke my heart.
I couldn't stop crying. I just miss him so much because of the most random things and all i want to be able to do is hug him. My heart is just missing a huge chunk and its never going to be whole again, it feels. I couldn't fall asleep for like 3 hours past when i was supposed to go to sleep because i kept crying or when i almost fell asleep i would think of something else about him. I slept really bad the whole night (of what little sleep i was able to get) and then i got a page at 2 and couldnt sleep after that really. I just laid there.
So on top of being sad and exhausted, i just feel generally crappy b/c of it all.
I'm not asking for any suggestions for you girls - i know its something i just have to get through and sometimes im going to have bad days. It just sucks when i have a bad day and i need to get it out to someone when im not in therapy :P
P.s. have a rice krispie treat - i think im going to make some today finally
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Re: Hard night...
I know I am prepared for the big things, but it's the little things that I don't even think of (like painting??). I knew it would be all sorts of weird at Christmas... and knew my mom wanted to take a drive to look at lights (like my parents and I always did, even as an adult). I was OK with/prepared for that. That night we drove past a restaurant my dad and I went to many many times when I was a kid (just the two of us)... and I lost it! Or little things like I was chatting with my 14 year old niece on facebook last week, and she told me she got placed in all honors classes for her freshman year next year... and I typed (but luckily didn't hit enter) "did you call grandpa yet??" He would have been so proud (and I would have heard about this multiple times from him
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Many many hugs to you Kim.
I'm so sorry that you had such a rough night. I can't even imagine what you're going through - just know that we're here for you to vent to anytime you need to.
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