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tshott · April 2011

Sorry this is late, it's been an emotional day. Drew's grandpa passed away last week and the visitation was today and the funeral is tomorrow. He was a POW, so he's having a full military funeral. It should be intense.

And I think I'm going to be starting AF tomorrow. Joy! I'll be very surprised if I don't start. I'm not supposed to get the results of my biopsy back until Tuesday or Wednesday. I think that we're going to end up taking a med break this cycle also and starting the IVF process next cycle. It is just happening too fast at this point.

QOTW: We all talk about the IL's becoming grandparents, but let's talk about the grandparents becoming great-grandparents. Are they excited? Do they talk about it?

LindsayM · April 2011

I'm so sorry that today was emotional; we're keeping Drew's family in our prayers. Hang in there!

Hoping all goes well with the biopsy results this week

I'm 6DPO today, so I have nothing new to report while I'm playing the waiting game.

As far as my grandparents becoming great-grandparents, I only have my maternal grandparents left. Currently, they have 17 great-grandkids. No joke. I'm the only grandchild who doesn't have any kids yet, other than my 15 year old cousin (all of her older siblings, ages 17,19 and 22 all have kids of their own. UGH!! Rage.) Also, other than my sister, I'm the only grandchild that will have planned a pregnancy - my family seems to be extremely fertile and have all conveived at an early age with casual sex partners. Lovely, eh? It makes holiday gatherings just spectacular.

Sorry, didn't mean to go off on a diatribe. Having said all that, I actually did tell my grandparents that we were expecting last time when we went home to tell my parents & sister. I'm really close to my grandmother, but I was initially going to wait until further along to tell her. However, my mother was WAY excited and I knew she wouldn't be able to keep it from her that long. So, we told them while we were there and they were THRILLED. I thought they'd be happy, but not over the top because they've been through it so many times. I was excited to see them so happy about it.

WildcatPrincess · April 2011

I'm due to start AF literally any minute now and will probably start charting again this cycle. We haven't decided when exactly to start TTC again, but the earliest we've discussed is June and I prefer to have an idea what my cycles are doing before we start!

PlumCallaLily · April 2011

WildcatPrincess:
I'm due to start AF literally any minute now and will probably start charting again this cycle. We haven't decided when exactly to start TTC again, but the earliest we've discussed is June and I prefer to have an idea what my cycles are doing before we start!

YAY! That's exciting!!!

Tania - so sorry to hear about Drew's grandfather. Keeping you guys in my prayers. Also praying that your biopsy results are good!

Linds - good luck this cycle!

As for me.....I had a super emotional and hard week last week. I thought that last cycle was it and even though I knew I was going to start because my temperature dropped, it was still devastating. The part that stinks the most is that I have no diagnosis. I just don't work. For someone who has control over every aspect of her life, not having the control to get pregnant despite my planning is really tough.

I am not yet sure what I am doing this cycle (on CD 4). I spoke with my Dr. on Friday (actually to my doctor and not the nurse this time) and she gave me some options. The first option is to do an HSG with her and continue with another medicated cycle. The other option is to go see an RE and start treatments there.

Either way, I'm sure I'll have to have an HSG - which I am terrified about because I have extreme anxiety when doctors stick foreign things in my lady bits. The HSG with my Dr. will cost about $800. The HSG with the RE will cost about double that since 100% of all testing and treatments is out of pocket. I called the fertility clinic and luckily, unless the results are super crazy, they will use the results from my regular Dr. and not make me do another HSG there should I have to see the RE in a few months.

L and I decided that we would do the HSG here and continue with meds. I pray that my tubes are not blocked. I called my Dr. back Friday afternoon and told the nurse what we would like to do if my Dr. was comfortable with treating me. If she is, I'll start the meds tomorrow and have the HSG Friday. If she's not, I'll have to make an appointment with the RE for a consultation (which will alone cost $225 - WTF) and go from there. It will take at least a month to get in.

I told my mom what we were going through last weekend and told L's mom this weekend. Up until then, no one in our family knew we were TTC. My mom cried and kept telling me she was sorry (like it was her fault my body was messed up). L's mom teared up too and despite me prefacing the conversation with "this is something I don't like to talk about but we just wanted to let you know", she asked a lot of questions. I know she was just trying to understand because she loves us. I feel like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders because I know they will be supportive with whatever we have to do.

As for grandparents...they are beyond thrilled for future babies. On L's side, there is only one grand baby (Olive, who turned one Friday) and twins on the way. Saturday at Olive's birthday party, Papa came up to me holding her and in front of everyone and said: "don't you want one of these?!". It was all I could do to laugh it off, suppress the tears, clear my throat and say, "yes, that would be great someday". I'm sick of pretending to people that the reason we don't have a child right now is because we're not ready. Infertility sucks.

wow, that got really long. sorry!

FutureMrsNAH · April 2011

sorry Stace. You're hanging in there great. I agree (like it matters) it was a good idea to do the HSG with your normal doc instead of the RE, and nice they won't make it be redone. I can't get over the costs for infertility stuff.

Glad you got it out in the open with your mom and ILs, I bet it does feel like a weight was lifted. And maybe you won't have to worry abou that too much longer anyway!!!

PlumCallaLily · April 2011

FutureMrsNAH:
sorry Stace. You're hanging in there great. I agree (like it matters) it was a good idea to do the HSG with your normal doc instead of the RE, and nice they won't make it be redone. I can't get over the costs for infertility stuff.

Glad you got it out in the open with your mom and ILs, I bet it does feel like a weight was lifted. And maybe you won't have to worry abou that too much longer anyway!!!

Thanks Summer

moviesprincess · April 2011

Stacey I am so sorry!! You know you can talk to me anytime if you need to.

PlumCallaLily · April 2011

Update: my Dr. just called and she's comfortable treating me. I go Friday at 10am for the HSG and I start the Femara tomorrow. I am so nervous.

Oct08b2bee · April 2011

PlumCallaLily:
Update: my Dr. just called and she's comfortable treating me. I go Friday at 10am for the HSG and I start the Femara tomorrow. I am so nervous.

Sending tons of vibes your way Stacey!

shyntrue · April 2011

heard from the DE nurse today... they lost my "wish list" for a donor (not sure why they waited almost 6 months to tell me) and wanted to know if they should send me new forms. Luckily I kept copies. Scanned & sent them to the nurse. She said "sorry we misplaced them".... Not sure if this means we have to wait another 3 to 6 months to be matched up... UGH

Of course maybe it won't matter & I'll continue to have some "normal" cycles and we'll get a miracle with my eggs...

Good luck ladies! <<Hugs>> and baby dust to all.

Edit: Oops forgot the Q... I only have one grandparent left... Grandma would be very happy if I could have a child... probably would be her only great grandchild. She is 90, so I'm not sure she will ever meet any....

LindsayM · April 2011

PlumCallaLily:
Update: my Dr. just called and she's comfortable treating me. I go Friday at 10am for the HSG and I start the Femara tomorrow. I am so nervous.

That's really exciting!! Glad that your doc can treat you so you don't have to go on to the RE for it. Hoping that this will give you some answers so you can keep moving forward.

I was completely under when they did my HSG, so I'm no help with what to expect. It's good that it's on a Friday, though, so that you have the weekend to rest up and recover.

We'll be praying & crossing our fingers here.

LindsayM · April 2011

shyntrue:
heard from the DE nurse today... they lost my "wish list" for a donor (not sure why they waited almost 6 months to tell me) and wanted to know if they should send me new forms. Luckily I kept copies. Scanned & sent them to the nurse. She said "sorry we misplaced them".... Not sure if this means we have to wait another 3 to 6 months to be matched up... UGH

Of course maybe it won't matter & I'll continue to have some "normal" cycles and we'll get a miracle with my eggs...

Good luck ladies! <<Hugs>> and baby dust to all.

Edit: Oops forgot the Q... I only have one grandparent left... Grandma would be very happy if I could have a child... probably would be her only great grandchild. She is 90, so I'm not sure she will ever meet any....

What?! I can't believe they lost it! That's fantastic that you made copies. Hopefully they'll move you right along and you won't have to wait long again.

WildcatPrincess · April 2011

PlumCallaLily:
Update: my Dr. just called and she's comfortable treating me. I go Friday at 10am for the HSG and I start the Femara tomorrow. I am so nervous.

Oh good luck! I hope you can get some answers.

shyntrue · April 2011

PlumCallaLily:
Update: my Dr. just called and she's comfortable treating me. I go Friday at 10am for the HSG and I start the Femara tomorrow. I am so nervous.

Good Luck with the HSG. Mine wasn't too bad, just some medium cramping when they shot the dye. But it didn't last very long, maybe 30 seconds or so. They did tell me to take 800 mg of ibuprophen about an hour before. And, bring your own pad for after in case of leaking. The one they give you is a monster LOL

lolabright · April 2011

Oh Stacey I wish I could give you a big hug. I'm glad your doctor will continue to see you and hope for the best on Friday.

Laura, I can't believe it took them that long to call and say they lost your list.

tshott · April 2011

Linds - Good luck this cycle! I really hope that the cleaned out plumbing did some good and you're KU again!!

Laura - I'd be so pissed!!!! You sound like you're handling it well and not really that upset. I hope that your cycles stay normal and that you get a miracle BFP!

Stacey - We already talked a little, but I'm really, really glad that you're taking this next step. I definitely think it's an important one. I'm really glad that you're OB will do it and that it'll save some money. Are you still going to have monitoring done?

PlumCallaLily · April 2011

tshott:
Stacey - We already talked a little, but I'm really, really glad that you're taking this next step. I definitely think it's an important one. I'm really glad that you're OB will do it and that it'll save some money. Are you still going to have monitoring done?

Thanks Tania! Yes, I am still being monitored....I have crazy appointments this month. I go Friday for the HSG, then the next Friday for my CD15 ultrasound and possibly a trigger, then the next Thursday for CD21 blood work.....assuming all is clear on the HSG.

I made a mistake and used the google machine last night to research HSGs. I am beyond terrified. I wouldn't even be able to describe to you all the level of anxiety I have with exams/procedures like this and I am petrified that it will be the most painful experience of my life. During regular paps, I can't even relax enough for them to put the speculum in. The Valium she prescribe probably won't even make a difference.

tshott · April 2011

PlumCallaLily:
tshott:

Stacey - We already talked a little, but I'm really, really glad that you're taking this next step. I definitely think it's an important one. I'm really glad that you're OB will do it and that it'll save some money. Are you still going to have monitoring done?

Thanks Tania! Yes, I am still being monitored....I have crazy appointments this month. I go Friday for the HSG, then the next Friday for my CD15 ultrasound and possibly a trigger, then the next Thursday for CD21 blood work.....assuming all is clear on the HSG.

I made a mistake and used the google machine last night to research HSGs. I am beyond terrified. I wouldn't even be able to describe to you all the level of anxiety I have with exams/procedures like this and I am petrified that it will be the most painful experience of my life. During regular paps, I can't even relax enough for them to put the speculum in. The Valium she prescribe probably won't even make a difference.

Please, please, please don't stress yourself out!!! I was so worried and nervous as I sat there waiting for it. STAY OFF OF GOOGLE!!!!

Here's what happened for mine: A nurse walked be back to the room. There is a bed that basically looks like any exam bed with the stirrups. The nurse had me lay on it while she got everything in position. The x-ray machine was a big C shaped arm that went over my abdomen. The screen was off to my side and kind of behind me. When my RE came in, he also had a nurse with him. They were both wearing those protective vest things. That kind of made me giggle! Anyways, he put me in the stirrups and the first nurse came around to hold my hand. I'm a hand holder!!

First, he inserted the speculum. Then, he swabbed my cervix three times with this big q-tip things that were soaked in iodine. That doesn't hurt at all, it's just a little cold and wet and pokey feeling. No pain. Then, he inserted the catheter. I felt a little pinch and some cramping. Then, he flushed my tubes with dye. It's really just an intense cramping feeling. Remember to breathe through it. Big, deep breaths. For me, it hurt more than cramps, but not as much as when I had the pain with my endo. Breathing really helped. It only lasted a few seconds. It was so quick. I was back in the room for maybe 15 minutes and the procedure only took 4 or 5 minutes from start to finish. I looked at the x-ray screen because it helped to keep my mind off of what was going on. Plus, it was really cool to see. I never expected my ute or tubes to be that small!

I promise that it'll be ok. I'm only a text away if you have any questions or want to talk or anything.

PlumCallaLily · April 2011

Thanks Tania! I guess I'm more nervous because the radiologist is doing it, not my Dr. or a nurse

I've never taken a Valium before....will it help with pain, or just help to relax me?

tshott · April 2011

PlumCallaLily:

Thanks Tania! I guess I'm more nervous because the radiologist is doing it, not my Dr. or a nurse

I've never taken a Valium before....will it help with pain, or just help to relax me?

I've never taken one before, but I'm assuming it'll just relax you. My RE told me that he's going to write me a script for Xanax before my ER and I can't tell you how excited I am to be in a "I don't care about sh!t" stage. I think that Valium relaxes you just the same.

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