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My goodness I'm emotional!
My poor DH lol. Long story short, I have decided to stop nursing and switch Brody completely to formula. I thought I was okay with it and now that I am going through the weaning process I am really having a tough time. I posted awhile back about a possible milk protein intolerance and after 6 weeks on the elimination diet I am sure that is what is going on with him. His symptoms improved quite a bit on the diet but he would still have episodes fairly frequently that were I am sure caused by something I ate with trace dairy or soy. I tried so hard on the diet and it literally breaks my heart to think of all the times I made him sick inadvertently. If he were just having skin issues or gassiness due to the intolerance I would totally stick it out but the poor little man is having awful episodes of projectile vomiting including it pouring out of his nose. It is just heartbreaking to watch. Bless his heart, he will just sigh and cuddle me when its over and I feel like the worst mom ever because I know I messed up the diet somehow and did that to my little boy.
Anyway, after talking to the pedi we decided to trial Alimentum formula and he has done great from the start. Takes the bottle like a champ, less gassy, NO vomiting and his skin has cleared up. After LOTS of help from All-His and her hubby we jumped through all the hoops in order for our insurance to cover the formula 100%. We are thrilled about that. They send a month's supply of the ready to feed kind (bonus!) right to our doorstep which is so wonderful. I have slowly started weaning and know this is what is best for him but it makes me so sad. Nursing was our special cuddle time and he was such a great nurser from the start that I hate to stop. I worry that he will miss me and I won't be able to provide the comfort to him that I once did. Silly I know.
Oh and P.S. going for a run while in the heart of the weaning/engorgement process is SO not a good idea! 
Re: My goodness I'm emotional!
Agree with PP -- you are a terrific mommy!
I had not at all planned on using formula with Z, and when I had to stop nursing, it really almost felt like I was in mourning. I didn't want to put away the pump, nursing bras, etc... It was so tough -- and in the midst of all the post-pregnancy emotions, I cried more than a few tears.
Your little guy will always want & need your cuddles. You're doing a great job of giving him everything he needs.
I know how hard it is to quit nursing. I quit after my 3rd bout of Masitis and 3 days in the hospital for a life threatening reaction to antibiotics. Even after all that I hated weaning and missed nursing. I felt the exact way you described.
You're definitely NOT a bad mom though. All that matters is that you and your baby are healthy and if it takes formula than so be it. Some parents WOULD continue to nurse just to do it, regardless of the effect it's having on their baby. Good for you for doing what is best for your baby and not the easiest for you!!