Because right now I'm ready to throw in the towel.
I don't know what the hell I was thinking when I signed up to take 9 hours this semester. I have so.much. due between now and Monday and the biggest thing of all is this project that I have been putting off and putting off and it's finally catching up with me. I have never in my life had such a block on an assignment. I cannot physically make myself sit down and just fvcking finish already! Hell, I've barely started.
On top of this massive project I also need to do several small papers for another course. Part of me says to just do those and get them out of the way but then I get all stressed about how much I have left to do on the first project. Aaaaaah!
And even after I'm done with all of the stuff due on Monday, I still have 2 take home finals (one easy, one fvcking hard) to do AND an in class final that I MUST make a B on to keep my A in the class. Fvck me sideways.
So I'm now sitting in our guest bedroom with a cup of coffee (I'm going to regret that) & all the lights on and I will not let myself go to bed until I finish at least one section. You can see how well that is going. I have a feeling I won't need the alarm to watch the Royal Wedding.
I keep thinking back to my first semester in grad school when I wrote 2 research papers and did a huge project report in three days. It was insane and I barely slept but I did it. And I was 7 months pregnant! If I can do that, this should be nothing!
Ugh, I'm so frustrated. I know if I can just survive the next 14 days, finishing up will be so much easier from here. But I just don't know if I'm going to make it! I think I might cry instead.
Re: Someone remind me why I thought going back to school was a good idea.
I think the hardest part of grad school is not quitting. I know I wanted to pretty much every day.
Hang in there! You'll pull this one out just like you did that first semester. And once you are done you'll have job security knowing you can get a good job almost anywhere. That peace of mind will be well worth all of the hell now. Good luck!
Thanks. I'm sitting in a coffee shop right now working on it. It's just so much but I am slowly getting through it all. I know it'll be worth it. Once I get past this Monday the next 10 days should be much better. And then I'll be done for the semester.
12 more days...I can do anything in 12 days.
This is legal advice. Circa 2011
Ditto! The semester is almost over!