sorry to do a double post but it's been a long day for us and my best friend, my husband, isn't in the shape for me to share this with right now.
Last night well early this morning we lost kevins grandfather to lung cancer / heart failer. He was dignosed with cancer in december it was then that his grandfather promised me he's wait until drake was born to pass, that he wouldn't miss it. I have been with my husband for almost 10 years and when i first met his grandpa he looked at me and said " well thanks walter ( he always called kevin by his first name) you brought me a new girl friend" he always treated me like one of his own grandchildren. He was very excited when he heard we were having a baby.
His health got worse and by march he was on oxygen 24 hrs a day. then Drake was born and grandpa was so happy. he could not hold him very well but would ask us to put his car seat on his lap and hold him that way. He nick named Drake "quack quack" ( drake is what you call a male duck). We took drake to see grandpa before he died and i've never seen somone look so happy. Kevins family said it was the first time they'd seen grandpa smile in a long time.
so anyways.... yesterday drake was acting strange and then when it was time for bed he would not go to sleep, he cried and cried nothing we did would make him happy. This doesn't happen with Drake yes i know he's still young but usually if i rock him long enough he will settle down but nope he just cried and fussed finally at around 3 am he settled down and fell asleep. thats when kevin's phone rang and we got the news that grandpa had just passed. he stopped breathing and his heart stopped. A part of me really feels that drake and grandpa spent grandpas last moments together in some strange way.
Do you think babies know? that they have some ablitly that adults don't to sense things? you don't have to answer it's just something to ponder.
Drake slept soundly after that, not a peep. My heart breaks for Drake that he will never know his grandfather, but a part of me also feels that last night drake spent a moment with his great grandpa that none of us will ever know about.
on a side note, having the emotional day that i am....having a child has shown me that life is so short, blessing happen and they can be taken away just as fast. Don't sweat the small stuff, worry only about the things you can change, know when to stop and say enough. The rest is beyond your control. this isn't directed to anyone specific but to a group as a whole. in regards to the board and life in general.
Re: something to think about (kind long /vent sorry)
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Congrats to both my TTC buddies, Amberley18 and sb2006 on their beautiful babies!
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