OK, so my dreams are getting more and more f-ed up.
You guys know I was planning to FF- well thanks to societal pressures, I feel like I am questioning my decision and now am *trying* to be open to whatever happens.
Well, long story short, I've noticed a lot of my anxieties lately is surrounding BF vs FF, losing the 40+ lbs of weight after baby is born (ugh, I hate typing that number out...), etc. Yesterday I went out w/ some friends and one asked what I was planning on doing and I honestly freaked out...I apologized of course,but it just made me uncomfortable and pissy for the rest of the day/night.
So fast forward to my dream(s). This is dream # 2 where I was in the hospital. Two nights ago my dream was solely the fact we had a little girl. That was it. Nothing weird. Just strange because at the beginning of the pg, all my dreams were about a little boy.
Last night's dream had to do with also being in the hospital, and having a little girl, however...it was so weird- my explanation is going to sound really messed up.... The lactation nurse came in, before the baby was delivered. I told her I would try to nurse but I didn't want to see anything because I was really uncomfortable, so it was almost like the baby (girl) was swimming to my chest through a pillow case type thing, so that I wouldn't see everything happening when it did. WTF? But then I realized how cute she was (which she had a ton of hair...) but still wasn't OK w/ nursing....I started crying and not in the happy way.
UGH!!!!! I wish this was an easy decision for me. It's obviously impacting my subconscious, very very much.
Re: What a messed up dream (pg related)...
Oh yes, the crazy pregnant dreams. I had one the other night where my doctor wanted to induce me this week but I didn't have my bags packed so I was more freaked out about that then being induced so early. And DH had decided to go on a painting rampage in our house, using hideous colors all over the place so I was freaking out about getting everything repainted before we brought LO home because of the fumes.
As far as breastfeeding goes, don't sweat it so much. Try it out for a week or so. If it's not for you then it's not for you. No one is going to think your a bad mom if you switch to formula.
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How bizarre! I remember with Nate, I would dream that I could take him out to hold him and put him back in to "bake" some more because he wasn't ready to be born yet...
I completely agree with this!! You really need to do what is best for you and Baby A!!
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As far as breastfeeding, please do what's best for you. If you don't want to do it, then don't and don't feel bad about it. I get so sick of women looking down on other women because they didn't breastfeed their child. It doesnt make them any better than the next person. Breastfeeding wasn't for me and I don't feel bad about it at all. I was a proud formula feeding mama!!