I feel like a failure today. I decided for my own sanity and anxiety, to re-enroll C in preschool a month earlier than planned. The last two days have involved throwing things, non stop yelling, etc. I am doing my best to remain calm and be consistent. The pedi yesterday said he thinks it's just a phase. I realize that the behavior problems won't go away overnight and it's going to take time, but at least this will give both of us a break during the day. It might not be so bad if I didn't have morning sickness and fatigue on top of high blood pressure and anxiety. I am stressed out all day and fear I'm jeopordizing my health and the babys. I hope being back in the routine of school will help things some. He'll go back to his same class with the same teacher. I feel like I can't handle my own kid.
Thanks for all of your support and advice.
Re: discipline update
The pp are right, you are NOT a failure. It is so easy for parents (especially moms) to feel this way. I get this same feeling from time to time (like when my little guy doesn't want to leave daycare to come home with me), but kids a quirky and we need to give oursleves a break.
I can't imagine dealing with morning sickness, fatigue, and a toddler. You are doing really well in my book.
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I don't work and my kids are both enrolled in full time, year round programs. I am a better mother because of it. We all do what we have to. I can also say that Truitt (4.5 yo) is WAY better behaved when he has the solid routine that school offers him. And he loves it and is happy there. There is not one thing wrong with having your kid in school- especially when there are discipline issues. Structure and positive peer pressure are great for those rough patches with behavior.
I was thinking this exactly! Some babies and kids NEED and THRIVE on routine. It sounds like in your case, by sending him back to school, you may be doing the BEST thing for him!
Don't be too hard on yourself... there is no easy answer to being mommy. We all have to figure out what is best for our kids, our family, etc. ((hugs))
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