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All right...
I need to tell you guys something. You all have to promise NOT TO SAY ANYTHING ON FB. It's not happy either. Seriously...no posting on my page because I will get my fat arse kicked.
I don't know if anyone pays attention to my ramblings on FB. I'm not offended if you do or don't...it's just FB and not important. But this week I've been cryptic and if you can read in between, they're whiny and feeling at a loss.
My SIL has Stage 4 cervical cancer, that has spread to her bladder, her uterus and quite possibly the lymph nodes (they will know more on that next week). She's 38 years old. She and my brother have been going through a ton o'crap for a year now. On top of she beat an addiction. So the past 6 friggin years, she has had one struggle after another.
I found out Tuesday. I cried all day. I cried part of Wednesday too. Then I got mad. I'm really mad that whatever Fate felt that my SIL who has struggled so much felt they needed to give her this as well. You look at her and you wouldn't know she was sick, well you guys wouldn't. We all knew something was wrong, we just didn't expect this.
I am out of everything. I feel lost. I feel helpless. I honestly can say, I've never been this scared ever. But I have to keep going on. My brother doesn't want me "telling people, they don't need to know"...but what he doesn't realize is that SOMETIMES, you need to tell people, because they need to know why you randomly burst into tears. Or why you're quiet or b*tchy or whatever.
I'm putting it here, so if I completely lose my mind or if I start posting things I didn't want anyone to worry, and know just an inkling of what's going on.
I don't expect you gals to do anything, just be the fabulous group of ladies that I have grown to care about and do what you do. I just needed to tell you guys because if I do need someone to catch me or hell get me drunk, if I need it. I know, doesn't solve anything, but it's fun for those few hours. LOL.
So that's what's going on in my crazy arse world. 
to everyone.
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I'm so sorry. Cancer is such a hard disease to deal with. I do understand the not telling anyone my Mom barely let us know what was going on. She just didn't want anyone to know. It was frustrating because you were never sure if it was OK for you to talk about.
You know you can feel free to vent, yell, and burst into virtual tears here. We are here not matter what you need.
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Tee sooo soo sorry!!!!! Huggies
I can try to bring u alcohol at work
I couldn't have said it better. We are here for you!
you are so right about telling people so they know where you are coming from.
hugs! this sucks. and you, and your entire family, are in my thoughts.
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I am so, so sorry. What an absolute crappy deal your SIl is getting. Cancer sucks
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