I'm so mad at myself right now. I had such a bad feeling this morning when I took my dog to the vet and had to really push myself to go. I shouldn't have left home today. The appointment went fine, but I went out to my sister's acreage to visit before she has her baby. Not even an hour after I got there my poor baby Mac got hit by a car. He went pretty quick, but I couldn't get to him in time to save him. I only made it there with enough to say goodbye and hear him take his last breath. The guy that hit him didn't even try and stop, slow down or anything. I just don't understand why.
I saw and heard the accident, and so did Gibson. It is so hard to explain to him what just happened but he's coping in his own way. What I wouldn't give to just pet him one more time.
Sorry it got long, and if you made it this far thanks for reading. I just needed to vent a little about it. I haven't stopped crying since noon, but I pick Russ up tomorrow from work and I know it's gonna be emotional.
Re: Having a bad day and need to vent
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Baby #2: Surprise BFP 9.19.12, EDD 5.24.13, natural m/c 10.19.13 at 9w
Awww, I'm so sorry Donna. Lots of hugs headed your way.
You and me both. It's absolutely the worst thing I've ever had to witness in my life. I can't imagine how Gibson feels right now. He's so sad.
Cecilia arrived 12 October 2012
We'll just not tell H about this little fact, m'kay?
I never thought it would be this hard to lose a pet. He was like one of my kids. I didn't think I had any more tears left, but they magically regenerated a lot this morning as soon as I opened my eyes. I haven't been able to eat yet and I can't stop shaking. When is this supposed to start getting better? I couldn't look at his kennel anymore so I moved it to the basement last night and I'm going to wash it today. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I feel horrible. I've never felt this crappy before. I'm usually strong for my kids but they heard my crying this morning, they have never seen me like this before.
I love how supportive you all are, it definitely makes me feel better to know how many of you care about someone you have never met.
The Daily Nugget
Cycle 12, IUI #1 - 33m post wash 10/15/10 = BFN
Cycle 13, IUI #2 - 15m post wash 11/16/10 = BFP, missed m/c, D&C 1/3/11
Cycle 15 - 18, IUI #3-6 = BFN
Cycle 20, IUI #7 = BFP!, missed m/c 9/14, D&C
DE-IVF Aug. 2012: ER 8/30 11R, 7M, 4F; ET 9/4 returned 2
Beta 9/18 #1-820, #2-1699, #3-7124
10/1 1st u/s measuring right on track, 125 bpm
BFP 5/2/11, missed m/c, D&C 6/13/11
BFP 12/8/11--Little Girl E Born 8/22/12