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Tired and frustrated - rant (long)
*sigh* I'm feeling sad and frustrated tonight.
Part of it is because I'm tired, and when I get tired, I get sad.
Another part of it is that I'm just really unhappy with my life right now. I don't like my job. I don't like where I live. And I feel like I worked really hard to get where I am, but it's not where I want to be.
I know what I want. I want a house that I can make a home with enough land to have an awesome garden and some privacy from the world. I want to have kids. I want to stay home and do awesome things like grow and preserve our food. I want to work for myself.
I've told DH what I want. He says he wants the same things. It's just taking SO long to get there. At least that's what it feels like. I guess I thought that when we got married this would all happen a lot faster. But you know, we have to earn some $$ first.
I just feel like I've spent most of my life working to make other people happy - go to school, get a good job; blah blah blah, but it's not what I want, and it's not making me happy. I know what I want and I've been waiting SO long to get it - OK, in reality it's not that long, it just feels like it...
I'm excited for October because DH is looking for a new job which could mean more $$ and a new city/house/place to live and maybe a new job for me. He's just SO busy working he doesn't have time to work on his resume and find a new job. I want to wait til he finds something new before I consider finding something new. He's already moved for me and my job - I want him to have a big say this time.
I know I just have to find little ways to stay happy and busy in the meantime. It's just so frustrating and discouraging and exhausting.
Thanks for listening. I really needed to get that out :-/
Re: Tired and frustrated - rant (long)
I'm really sorry you're frustrated! I think that it's wonderful that you were able to talk to your husband about all of this and that you are on the same page in terms of your long term goals. I hope he is able to start his job hunt soon and that it goes well.
Would it be possible for you to try to find a job that you like better? Sometimes bosses can be pretty accommodating when it comes to trying to keep their employees happy, maybe they could work with you to try to shift your responsibilities into something that you would enjoy. Or maybe it means you looking for an entirely different job.
I feel like if you were to find something that you enjoy to do during the day, the rest of the issues that you are frustrated with might not seem so big.
Serendipity3, South Beach, Miami, FL 2012
That's a good point Maggie. I think trying to find a job that makes you happier would have a big effect on your outlook.
I can relate to how you're feeling. I'm feeling pretty good about where things are at right now, but about 4 years ago I was feeling the exact same way. We had been married over two years, I didn't like my job but couldn't seem to find anything else, we were trying to sell our condo and were getting nowhere with that. I wanted to start TTC but couldn't justify trying when I felt like everything else was so "out of place". It just felt like we were stuck, and couldn't seem to go anywhere. Gradually things started falling into place and things got better, but I know how frustrating it feels to be where you're at.
I'm sorry you're having a rough time, but please feel free to vent whenever you want.
Feel free to vent away, I think we've all felt like that sometimes.
I worked at my job for 7 1/2 yrs before I had DD & I wanted out about a month after I started, but if I didn't stay I wouldn't have met DH (my boss is who told me about a single, young adult bible study where I ended up mtg DH). I stuck at it & I survived.
Now I get tired thinking about being stuck in our condo for another few years, cuz I've wanted to be in a house for so long. But it's paid off & I don't have to do any outside maintenance (snow removal, grass cutting), which works w/DH being gone during the week. I get sad seeing families out during the week, wishing DH was home to help w/the kids, etc. Not how I pictured my life a year ago.
*hugs*, hang in there, I hope you feel better about things soon. Again, feel free to vent here, I think it helps sometimes.
Sorry you're feeling this way. I just wanted to say that if you want to get into preserving there's no reason you need your own garden or house to do it in. Many folks go to the farmers market or orchards and buy huge boxes of produce to preserve. Don't let not owning a house stop you from pursuing hobbies, because chances are once you own a home that's where all your former hobby money will be going along with all your spare time.
My job sucks. It's long hours with a lot of underhanded politics and a lot of ridiculous ass kissing with not so great pay. I keep coming back because it affords me the ability to pay for my home and car, save money, and not worry about making ends meet. In the end it's just a job and if I were hit by a bus tomorrow someone else would be able to step in and do the job. That's why I need fun things to do, good friends to visit and hobbies in my life.
You guys are all so sweet! Thank you for the kind words! I'm feeling a lot better today.
I think I do need to talk to my supervisor about reducing my responsibilites. I don't have time to do what needs to get done and it's rediculous.
I should really start expanding my hobbies or picking a couple to really work on.
Thanks again for your support! And HURRAY for vacation next week! That should help, too
my mom and i both work upwards of 60 hours a week, yet we find time every year to can two types of jams, tomatoes, hull and freeze fresh beans. and we do it together for both families (and my parents have never owned a house or condo). it can be done, and it often is by people who have the least amount of free time and available cash.
while i understand being in a job you don't care for, in a neighborhood you don't care for and that putting a damper on things, allowing that to prevent you from doing things you would otherwise enjoy might be a symptom of a serious mental health issue (i.e. depression, which i encourage you to seek assistance if you think this may be the case) or a big old case of growing up. keep your head down and plow through. you'll get where you need to get, it's just that we all have to learn that we aren't entitled to things, or they don't just happen because we hit X age, get married, and have a full time job. 10 months is pretty much "over-night" in adult-land, as we all learn to our chagrin.
I'd suggest doing some volunteering with those less fortunate to keep your head on and give yourself perspective. There are TONS of opportunities in Ann Arbor and Ypsi. Perhaps tutoring someone in English with Washtenaw Literacy, or going to walk dogs at the Humane Society, or calling up Food Gatherers and asking if they need any volunteers. Their mascot is a giant carrot. and they're located on carrot way. i mean... it can't get better that than, can it?
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