September 2009 Weddings
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Confessions?
Yep totally almost wrote Thursday confessions on the title. Nope. Only Wednesday. Boo. Hiss.
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I think I pin too much.
It irks me when people say things like "Oh thank goodness I'm having a boy/girl". Just be happy youre having a baby, man. Like if its not what you want are you going to return it?
im almost 27 years old but when i am left alone at night i turn into a 2 year old afraid of the dark. yes i have an alarm. and yes i live in a really safe neighborhood (heck i left the garage door open and the house door unlocked for 24+ hours and nothing happened). but i seriously go crazy when Andy is OOT. last time i was convinced someone was going to attack me because the doorbell rang (it was the neighbor and they taped a note to the door which i couldnt see through the peep hole and i didnt dare OPEN the door to NO ONE). i put things against doors, i slept with my contacts in case i needed to see in the middle of the night. i put my purse beside my bed in case i needed to flee out the window. im nuts friends. NUTS.
when i read Sara's "leaving" poll i felt like i should tell everyone who picked "i've thought about it" that even though all of the responders picked that they never thought about it or SS, that i have thought about and they arent alone. a few months ago andy and i sat down and discussed if we should continue being married to each other. nothing tragic happened- no abuse or unfaithfulness or anything like that. i just felt like i was giving 90% all the time and he was giving 10%. i felt like he took advantage of the fact that i would do anything for him and i was really sacrificing my happiness and the person i really am to be the person i thought he wanted me to be as a wife. when we had the discussion he said he absolutely did want to continue to be married and i said that if my life at that moment was going to be my life forever, i couldnt do it. i couldnt live unhappily for 60 more years. we made a lot of changes and neither of us questioned the love we have for each other, and things are much better. but yea, i've been there. its not all puppies and rainbows.
I confess that I've had a toothache for about a week but I've been putting of going to the dentist because I don't want to get yelled at. They always yell.
I confess that I'm probably too fat for skinny jeans, but I don't really care.
I confess that we spent too much money over the summer, so we're probably going to be playing catch up for the rest of the year.
I agree with you re: the leaving poll. I think a lot of people lied. The first 9 mos of my marriage sucked- for reasons that were outside of our control. I felt alone in a new city, didn't have a full time/ permanent job, Kirk was stressed about money because of the unsteady temping/ HCOL, and it all boiled over one day. I packed everything I owned and sat on my porch and cried because I thought our marriage was over. We talked about it and discussed how to handle the stress differently and depersonalize some of the issues that were really difficult. Truthfully everything is better for the conversation we had- we're happier now than we were before.
I confess that I don't like sending wedding and baby gifts to people whose marriages I don't believe will last. I know, you celebrate the occasion, blah blah blah, but I get invites for people who have been together 6 months or a year or who I know are only getting married because one partner has put on a lot of pressure at a 3:1 ratio to people I believe should be getting married. Sure, some 6 month marriages last, but I think people who actually go through hard situations together over the course of time stand a much better shot.
I confess that I'd rather go to the dentist (which is my great fear in life) rather than go to the wedding we're headed to. Between the girl's b1tchy bridesmaids and the guy's abusive drama filled groomsmen and the constant controversy over who is staying where on what days, I am totally over it. And we're not even there yet.
Stand up for something you believe in.
I am with you on the afraid part. I actually took a cooler to my room last night so when I had Charlottes milk, I wouldnt have to walk downstairs alone to put it away. I need help...
and I am with you on the everything is roses. I spent our 1 year anniv in tears because Mark was being so mean. he didnt mean to be, but I felt that he was being unfair about how our relationship is divided. He tends to fly off the deep end and jump to mean mode before backing up and stepping into my shoes. We get over it, we discuss it and realize sometimes how silly it is, but its also necessary for us to have a healthy relationship.
I am too heavy for a lot of things- its frustrating but I really cant control my lunch time eating. every other thing I eat is fine. I feel I need to seclude myself for a while and maybe get to a more healthy weight. I know my diabetes is more controlled when I am skinnier but its really hard.
I lie and tell people that we're thinking about starting to try for a baby in the spring. I am nowhere near ready for a baby and Jay is way too immature in so many ways that he doesn't even realize. He can't even remember to switch his laundry from the washer to the dryer, how is he going to do anything childcare related?
I have been feeling really down in the dumps regarding my appearance recently. I feel like everyone is losing weight and slimming down and that I'm sitting here, everybody's fat friend. I get motivated to get eat healthier and exercise more and then we have a busy weekend or my parents come in for the week and I end up completely derailed, crashed and burning.
I confess that I know very little about our financial situation. I know how much H makes at work and I know how much he puts in our joint accounts each paycheck but other than that I am in the dark. He pays every bill and has all the passwords for everything. I don't even know how much is on our credit card bc he handles everything. And all important documents are locked in his safe which he has the key for.
Also Ive been going to the gym and doing zumba but I just sat here and ate half a box of teddy grahams and had 4 tacos for dinner last night. This is why my thighs touch...booo.
Evie "watches" yo gabba gabba. It's a half hour. I need to get stuff done, i.e. clean the house, eat, clean myself.... I realize that this may inhibit her ability to learn in the future but I need to get things done now because she doesn't guarantee me a daily nap nor is able to play by herself long enough without fussing/crying.
Last night, Dan and I got into a fight. It ended with him hanging up on me. I haven't talked to him since. Frankly, it doesn't bother me. I'm done with the high school crap of hanging up on someone because you're not getting your way and don't know how to communicate what you're really feeling.
And on a lighter note, when I make Evie's cereal in the morning, I stopped defrosting already pumped milk for it. I just squirt milk from my boob into the bowl. Seriously, it's less wasteful and the perfect temp. Plus, I'm too lazy to get the pump out for less than an ounce of milk.
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I put Sam in front of Blues Clues every morning. If I have to shower, I'll throw an episode on, put her in her pack n' play, and do my thing. I even have her in the room when I'm watching MY shows -- Cupcake Wars, Law & Order, Jersey Shore. The horror!
Chris and I had a huge fight on Sunday, and he walked out on me. Like left the house, left. It was the first time I sat down and seriously thought about where I was going to go with Sam, who would let us spend the night, and how long we would need to stay. He came home 30 minutes later, but the thoughts are still in my head...
With everything else going on, I'm THIS close to blowing off WW...
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i hate the way i look. i am doing something about it, i just wish that what i'm doing would work faster.
i'm angry that i'm not pregnant.
my ex (the one right before i got with dh) sends me messages all the time about leaving dh to be with him. i loved him with my whole heart-but it still doesn't touch the love dh and i have. i've blocked him, deleted him, and asked him to stop. but, he finds ways around all of those attempts to keep him away. i care about him, but not enough to ruin what j and i have.
it really infuriates me that j's parents are such awful human beings and parents. i wish i could make them go away.
I'm fat, but I still ate a taco salad and a big frozen yogurt at lunch! Wheee!
Nat, I think the boob squirt thing is hilarious. I used to die laughing when mine would squirt like that.
Also, El watches Nick Jr too. Probably an hour a day - 30 min in the morning, and 30 min at night. I'm not at all concerned about her development. She's totes brill.
I know a really big secret about one of our employees at work. REALLLLLLLY big. Like if the company found out all hell would break loose. And I should tell, b/c it's going to cost the company A LOT of $. But I'm leaving and my boss is being a real see you next tuesday, so I'm not. ::shrugs:: And I don't feel bad about it, oops!
I strongly disagree with the sentiment that all babies and all brides are beautiful. Let's keep it real, shall we? CB's cousin (a fugly bride) just had one fuuuuugly baby. She made the 4 hr trip w/ the baby (whose awful hillbilly name I can't remember) to show her off to CB's 90 yr old senile grandma. The same grandma who thinks my name is Wendy and keeps asking why haven't CB and I gotten married yet, even though she was at our wedding. Anywho, I had a REALLY hard time not making a
face when I saw her. Yeeps!
I confess that I'm halfway jealous of and halfway irritated with SIL. She has lost 40 pounds in the last 6 months. I'm jealous because she's no longer fat like me, but irritated because when people ask her how she did it, she says diet and exercise. Danny has told me that she takes diet pills. Don't tell those of us who are truly trying and struggling with our weight that you pulled it off with diet and exercise when you damn well know you're lying through your teeth.
I also confess that I saw a picture she posted (she at least has some tact and didn't tag me) of me from this past Sunday. I literally look like a whale. Number one: I'm never wearing that shirt again (at least until I lose 40 pounds). Number two: after I saw that picture (10 minutes ago) I started eating a piece of white coconut cake that is half the size of my head.
Guess I'll just eat the fat away.
Also, I'm an emotional eater (ya think!!).
And, I didn't lie in the "leaving" post. I've never thought about packing up and leaving Danny. I *have* thought about what would I do if he left me. I don't make enough money to support the house on my own, so more than likely I'd have to move back in with my parents. What would we do with the dogs? They are so attached to each other, we'd probably have to do some sort of joint custody thing. Also, he is truly my best friend; if he left me I don't know what I would do emotionally.
I confess, I don't think I like my new job placement. It seems to be getting worse and worse by the day. The people are okay and the kids are okay, but my brain just keeps picking up on the negatives. I don't know if I can get around that. I'd like to go into a completely new job direction, but I don't have the money to go back to school.
I agree with you 100%. To go along with that - I hate it when people are like "oh I bet your husband is SO HAPPY you're having a boy!" What? He would be miserable if the baby were a girl? People just need to shut up.
I hate that H doesn't do any of the cleaning around the house. I feel like I do everything. And honestly? I'm lazy and I hate cleaning so doing it just makes me more bitter. Is it really that hard to pick up your sh!t and put it where it belongs? No. It isn't.
My boss is already talking about coming to visit me in the hospital after I have the baby. I don't want her, or any of my other coworkers, there at all. I don't have the best relationship with my boss and I think her being there would just make me cranky.
I'm 5 weeks into my current web design class and I have yet to really learn anything. It's disappointing.