CD 8...Would have been 14 weeks

Kasi80 · November 2011

It feels good to be back to normal (cycle-wise) and now I'm on CD 8 and we're not wasting anytime TTC again. It's been a hard month and a half but I feel like I'm moving on for the most part. It still stings to see BFPs, u/s, or pg talk but I can handle it much better now. I did have a little setback last week when I walked into the baby section of Target to buy a shower gift. Target was where I was just 2 hours before I started miscarrying. I was looking at all the baby stuff so going in there again brought back the reality that I no longer am pg.

I am still trying to figure out how to handle the holidays and with having to see my pg SIL. I still am not ready to see her or be around all the baby talk. I'm not sure Andrew will understand my feelings on it so this is going to be tough.

I keep getting emails that I have unsubscribed from multiple times reminding me what week I would have been on. So annoying but not hurtful anymore. Maybe it doesn't hurt because now we can TTC again and hopefully it won't be like last time...2 freaking years.

I'm scared I will m/c again but I can't not try. I don't think I will announce my pg the next time around. I have a feeling I will be quiet about it for many months before I say anything to anyone. It will be easier for me that way if anything were to happen again.

cookiemonster03 · November 2011

I'm sorry Kasi. M/C blows. Have you considered talking to your RE about it? Ours was pretty non-nonchalant about both of them since they were so early (pre-HB) and considered genetic failures, but he did order some testing after the second one. Maybe ask? Since it took so long to begin with maybe they can do some now?

Kasi80 · November 2011

If I experience another I will seek some answers. I think it was just something that happened this time around for whatever reason. I have carried successfully before (Suri) so I am holding on to that hope. As for the length of time it took me to get pg I really think it was my choice of BC. I never thought it would take that long though.

xojo1 · November 2011

I'm sorry, Kasi Sad

I know there really isn't much I can say, but I am praying for you and very hopeful that things will work out.

marytini · November 2011

I am glad you are getting back on the horse, so to speak. I just want to say that when you do get another BFP, share it with a few close people besides DH, that way if something does happen again, you will have some support. I know going through the 1st MC wasn't easy for you, but I can't imagine having to go through it again, completely alone.

Kasi80 · November 2011

Thanks. I'll likely tell my BFF and my coworker that I work with closely but that's probably it.

firewife9278 · November 2011

xojo1:
I'm sorry, Kasi I know there really isn't much I can say, but I am praying for you and very hopeful that things will work out.

Exactly this! I hope that when you do see your next BFP, it is your sticky baby!!

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