**I've come to realize that I never really knew exH. This came to light after a knockdown/dragout last night after I told him I wouldn't come get the girls from him because he had a headache. He had also called me yesterday morning to see if I would leave work and come get Lily (she was sick) so he could go "get some stuff done". He called me many not nice names, told me I was a horrible mother, and that "someday I would regret abandoning my children." First of all, whut?! Me not coming to get the kids from you because you have a f*cking headache (suck it up, whinea$$) is now abandoning them? That's not a stretch at all!! For once, I was actually thankful for all the events that transpired which prevented him from committing to counseling. People like him never change. Me, me, me. I probably should participate in the Facebook "thankfulness" trend, saying how thankful I am for that truly awful period in my life...because I am so much better off.
**As another note, he is moving in with his girlfriend this weekend. Oy. Good luck with that, man. I can't imagine moving in with my boyfriend at this point (I do believe we've been dating longer...knew each other before we dated even), but then adding her kid into the mix?! No freaking way. I just hope it doesn't blow up, for Ava and Lily's sake.
**I've lost 14 lbs since October 31st.
**The Walking Dead is such an amazing show, but I say every Sunday before we watch it..."I f*cking hate this show!" to which BF says, "Then why do we watch it?!" to which I say, "BECAUSE I LIKE THE STORYLINE! IT'S JUST THE ZOMBIES THAT MESS IT UP!"

Re: Wednesday Randoms!
I hated the whole sweater dress with leggings look. Last night I went to Kohls and bought a dress, leggings, and tights.
I feel like a little girl again. And it was super flattering which is why I got it. It wasn't one of those super thick ones. I'm going to another location tonight to get 1 more that I loved but they didn't have my size in. I'm hoping they still have the other things I want on Black Friday because they will be cheaper.
I'm cooking for Thanksgiving this year and my mom keeps giving me ideas. I already have the menu planned and I'm tired of her trying to change it.
I started a bootcamp last week and love how I feel right now. I don't think I've lost anything but my work pants fit better.
Went to Cheddars last night, LOVED it (see below post)
Darn you Lia Sophia for your buy two, get up to 4 more items half off..165.00 later, I have four things to show for it..I'm a sucker.
T-giving and the In-Law invasion is creeping up way too quickly, but I reward myself by getting on a plane to Vegas the Sunday after, so hopefully I can make it thru without losing my mind!
Super excited to paint my house (inside) this weekend. This year when MIL comes and says "Oh, did you do anything new to the house? (wide eyed glancing around)" Instead of her saying "oh, that's okay, I know you're busy (insert insincere look)"...I can says "HA I painted!!!" Happy???????
I wish I would have taken measurements before I started. I'm desperately needing to buy new pants and have already had to buy new jeans.
So much for a day off. I have to go into work from 2-4 for meetings today. Its my fault of signing up for a protocol group though!
My DH seems distant lately. I keep asking him whats wrong but he always says nothing. I know he's been working swing shift the past few weeks and running on little to no sleep when he gets off at 11 and has to leave at 5am again but its bothering me
I can't wait for school to be done, not only for obvious reasons but this house needs to be turned upside down and CLEANED. We have been living like this for a year and I HATE it!
Oh! And we finally got my extended family to move Christmas to the weekend prior. I always dread Christmas because it's such a rush. My Christmas for the girls, rush to my extended family gathering for breakfast and gifts, then rush to my Mom and Dad's, then rush to get the girls to exH.
This year, I'll be able to enjoy Christmas morning! I have all kinds of ideas!
-We have 4 weekends left to get all of the baby stuff and any house projects pulled together before we have family here from 12/15-1/7. Oh yeah, and at somepoint in there, we will be adding another kiddo into the mix.
-I'm caving in to the pod fad and buying a nespresso machine instead of a "real" espresso machine. My reasoning is that it's 100 times quieter than a standard machine, but really, I'm just getting lazy and I don't want to spend an obscene amount of time teaching Dh how to use it.
-My kid hates pasta. He will eat anything, except pasta.
--I need to do some major packing/prep work before we leave for vacation
--Lyra bonked her head this morning on the coffee table and has a gorgeous purple bruise (a line actually) across her forehead. This may put a damper on my xmas photo.
--I am very happy that Lyra doesn't crawl, pull up or roll. She just sits and plays but she has started scooting a bit on her bottom in a circle. I can get a lot of things done without worrying about her.
--The above bothers my MIL so when she comes over she always puts Lyra on her stomach or tries to stand her up. On her stomach, Lyra somewhat slides backwards (we have wood floors) which bothers MIL even more, then L just looks at me like what the heck? I was playing nicely and now she has me on my stomach.
--I almost blew it last night on the phone with my mom. I was talking about us coming to visit next week and almost dropped "and in January". Thank goodness my brain was going faster than my mouth.
--I am almost done with my xmas shopping!
--I am also excited that we will be able to enjoy xmas day with just us then close friends later that night. We are hoping to get pictures of the kiddos in all matching pj's.
How is it that someone texts you asking a question you respond back giving the rundown and they say WOW, i was just asking. I was not rude at all and when i wrote back and said sorry was not being rude just giving you the rundown they cant even attempt to text back. WHATever!
My baby turns 2 on Sunday, and while he has not been my baby for quite sometime it sucks to see my boys growing up. Time just moves way too fast, but I love the stages they are at and can see so much fun in our near future.
H left for hunting this morning. He needs this vaca as he has been working his tail off at work and is completely under appreciated. I hope he gets his big buck and can have a stress free 5 days away!
I want to start a bootcamp or some type of program that really kicks me into gear. I've dropped 15 lbs and have kept it off, but I need to lose much more. My prob is time.... i dont have any...
My best friend got engaged and is in the full planning of her wedding. I'm sooooo super excited for her. It has been fun tossing out ideas and looking at wedding stuff. I could so do this for a business as it is right up my alley and I have a lot of contacts!!
I'm grouchy.
I have no money for christmas this year. I have no money for anything really. I need to cut some extras from our budget fast. And even though I have no money, I bought myself a pair of work pants today. All my pants are getting old and worn, so I just went ahead and bought a pair of maternity slacks from kohls. In my defense, they were on sale and I had a coupon.
I feel like I work with some really petty ladies sometimes. They have no idea what team work is.
I feel selfish saying this, but I hope I dont get a bunch of baby crap for christmas this year from my IL's, I could really use some practical gifts that I actually want instead of a bunch of ugly kmart baby clothes and knick knacks(gag).
My house is a mess, and I don't really want to clean it.
I get a gainshare type bonus in December. It's usually around $300. I use that as last minute money for gifts and stocking stuff.
I've just learned to make a dollar stretch, and have also swallowed my pride a bit and told people that we needed to set a dollar limit and stick to it. People were awesomely receptive.
Ditto! We have been watching it also and the zombies are so gross but the story line is great! Every week I get irritated abour the blood and guts, then I get excited to watch it the next week. lol
I have a list as long as my arm of things I want done before Isla arrives. You'd think that with working half days I'd get some of it done - not so much.
We got the dog shaved Monday, and I think some of her hair between her back legs is prickly so it makes her walk really weird. Sometimes she just gets up and runs a huge circle around the room, then tucks her butt and sits back down. I feel bad, but it makes me laugh every time!
I was listening to a Rascal Flatts CD in the car, and a song came on about a girl who has leukemia and loses her hair. I've hear it many times, but yesterday I was bawling when it came on. I was glad I was far enough from home that by the time I got home, DH couldn't see the evidence from my sobfest.
I am very grateful for only having to work half days, but sharing my stuff is really hard! My sub does things differently than I do, she leaves things in the wrong place, and she's not as anal about the art supplies as I am. Normally I am a very easy going, cluttered, messy person, but when it comes to my space and stuff at work, I am very particular, and it's driving me nuts!
Heartburn sucks @ss!
I have peed my pants no less than 3 times this week, to the point where I have to go get new pants on. Luckily this only happens at home, but still. DH knows if I sneeze or cough and then leave the room, I probably just peed myself.
On that note, this baby is head down and ready to go! I have my fingers crossed she comes before 2012. With DH's ACL surgery scheduled for December, it would suck to start over again with insurance in January. I would never get induced for money reasons, but this sure makes me think about it.