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confessions!

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Me:39 Dx LPD, Fibroid, AMA and all that goes with that. H:37 Dx low motility and low morphology. TTC since 3/12. Clomid 8/12 and 9/12: BFN. 11/12 on a break for Myomectomy sched. 11/26. Resume TTC early 2013.

Re: confessions!

  • I have had my maternity photos booked for about 4 months now and I have been super excited about them, but now I am seriously considering canceling them.  I think I waited too long and now I am past the cute part of my pregnancy.  I feel like an absolute cow now and I think that getting photos taken to remember this is a bad idea.
  • I'm so sick of bad news. Too much bullsiiit happening in the last couple of days.
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  • Aww sorry cshissell...I remember having my shower at 33 weeks and thought wow...someone should've warned me about my face looking so big!

    I have already complained in two other posts and made it about me.  I just don't want my MIL in my house...she already cried over the craziest things that werent' even bad and now it's of course multiplied...trying to be there for my H during this tough time and then he's there for her coddling her and I'm a planner and need to know how long she'll be at my house and since she's already manipulating the situation it just makes me so mad that I don't want to go home with Ava.

    My guest room stinks so bad of stale nasty cigs (and I grew up in a house where my parents smoked in the house and it never smelled like that) so it's going out into the hallway and seaping under doors.  That is my future nursery ugh which was supposed to be started on after Tday.

    My BIL has a guest house but it's oh this weekend won't work and then maybe next weekend but it will take 2 weekends and so this could turn into a month long adventure and I won't make it y'all.  I don't even like my friends and family who are so helpful and sweet to stay longer than 4 days.

    But how can I seriously tell my H "your mom needs to be out in 2 weeks" we've had fights long ago and I always get called selfish.  Some folks are saying just blame it on the pregnancy haha

    Be on the lookout for my freak out post in two weeks where I tell H she needs to go or I'm going to stay with friends who've already offered haha

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  • I've known for months that I likely have something serious going on with my health, but have decided to ignore it. It took a kick in the @$$ from my oral surgeon (who's also a neural pathologist) to get me to a neurologist. Everything that has gone wrong over the past 3 years, I've written off as something else, attributed to something else. The surgeon was the first one to suggest that they are more than likely all interlinked. Apparenly my numb hand that I chalked up to cubital tunnel, my vertigo which was linked to Maneirre's, my optic neuritis that I was told was an allergy induced migraine.. and a bevvy of other cr@p, are all likely neurological. Yippee.

    However, I did find a specialist and get in for Monday morning. Better get this looked at before I lose my health insurance

  • City - you are scaring me. Get your behind to the doctor ASAP!

    Cole - you are actually letter her smoke IN your house? You are better than me. No way, no how would I let that happen.

    Shmooz - I hope your run of bad things is over!

    Cshissel - sorry you aren't excited about the pics. What about getting your hair done or getting a new outfit to help make yourself feel cute?

    I have no confession. I confess everything to yall all the time, so I'm lame on confession posts.

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  • I'm having a really hard time not being home with Ronan. Its just not an option  for me not to work at this point which I've accepted but it's really hard to deal when other moms talk to you like you're just not willing to make the material sacrifices necessary to stay at home with your kid. I hate feeling like I have to justify our situation to everyone by explaining that I'm the "bread winner," that I carry the benefits, etc. Ugh.

    People aren't kidding when they tell you that this isn't an easy gig!

    Sorry that's not a very steamy confession, I'll try to think of something that's more entertaining.

    cschissell- I remember feeling the same way, but am now really happy we got pictures taken. I know you don't feel beautiful but trust that you are and take the pictures anyway ;-) 

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  • schmooz- I've been thinking about you, hope things get better all around.

    cole- I'd be at my friend's already, don't feel bad about not wanting your MIL there. And tell her to get her nasty ciggarettes outside! I grew up with a smoker (inside) too. Boy I don't miss those days!

    city- keep us posted, glad you were able to get an appointment so quickly.

    kare- next time make something up :-P 

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  • I confess that Saturday night I slept with H. We had been out celebrating my certification and I had a few drinks, let loose and everything for a moment seemed normal and comfortable. Momentary lapse of common sense, I know. Nothing has changed otherwise and we still have A LOT to work on but it was great to be "together" again, even if for one night. I'll update later about his therapy and stuff
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  • Oh no she is NOT allowed to smoke in the house...she claims she didn't either in her house but everything is permanately etched in her belongings!!!!  And it smells everywhere...it's disgusting.

    She brought a blanket that H's mamaw had crocheted for the new baby (did one for Ava as well) it smelled soooo bad and I thought you actually want your brand new grandchild wrapped in this?

    I don't get how I grew up in it and it was never that bad...it's like she rolls around in it or something it's so nuts.  I used to bar tend and would often open at 11 and that's exactly what the bar used to smell like ack!

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  • I confess that I had an u/s today and I was scared to go and find no baby, but there was one with a HB of 167!!!
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  • I confess that I'm supposed to be on a diet but I just ate a candy bar.

     

    RGV - yay on the healthy baby!! Do you have u/s pics you can share??

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  • Editted.... thanks ladies :-)

    **Blog Sale - UPDATED 04/03/2012**
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    First weight loss goal - 40lbs... DONE! Second weight loss goal - 17lbs... LilySlim Weight loss tickers
  • i'm happy for you! you deserve it!

    Me:39 Dx LPD, Fibroid, AMA and all that goes with that. H:37 Dx low motility and low morphology. TTC since 3/12. Clomid 8/12 and 9/12: BFN. 11/12 on a break for Myomectomy sched. 11/26. Resume TTC early 2013.
  • madame I know exactly how you feel.  I wish I could say it gets better...for some mommie's it does and I give them so much praise for being able to juggle it all but I'm just so exhausted that I can't even give her all that I want at the end of the day but I do still try.

    I'm in the different boat of we could make it work but H's fears of course creep up on him..he won't have a choice with the second...I really hope that in the next couple months that job opens up for you and you can stay at home

    City-I hope they find what's going on and it's not something super invasive..just glad you found a doc who seems to have his stuff together enough to know that it's all most likely linked

    yay-fraire saw the u/s pic on FB whoot...

    Blond-you do deserve to be happy and I hope that happens very soon

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  • cole ~ will you stay at home after #2 arrives?

    blonde~ wishing you the very best! I hope you can find true happiness!

     

    confession~ I am so jealous of second babies but know we aren't quite ready yet. Hopefully soon.

  • H says no but honestly with the amount in daycare, and driving (usually 2-2.5 hours a day to go a total of 30 miles there and back) so extra gas money and lunches what I will bring home I'm quite sure I can find something from home.

    I'm looking into doing dictation at night when the kids are asleep but you have to sign up and take a test and well things have been pretty darn crazy around my house and I want to do it when H is traveling so I can focus. 

    What he doesn't know is starting at the end of December I'm taking all of what I make and putting it in our savings and doing a mock live on H's salary until the baby is born.  I know it will be fine and then by then I will have saved what I would have brought home for an entire year once I put both in daycare plus trying to add the difference anyways.

     

    I hope things line up for you soon and you guys can get to work on #2!

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    I confess that I'm supposed to be on a diet but I just ate a candy bar.

     

    RGV - yay on the healthy baby!! Do you have u/s pics you can share??

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    Here it is! Not much to see but that's my growing baby Wink

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    Editted.... thanks ladies :-)

    Damn, missed it.

    Thanks for keeping me and my family in your thoughts, ladies.

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  • Blonde- Also happy for you! Hope you get more of it!

    LSU- I'm glad that it looks like things will work out better with #2. Everyone told me it would get better, it's been two months and I feel like it's worse. And I'm still at 4 days a week, not even full time. Things are looking up, but it feels like it's taking forever!

    Buck- I always think of you, hope it's time for #2 for you guys soon!

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  • madame - i know exactly how you feel...i remember posting something on FB once about not wanting to go back and my cousin said "i never even considered someone else watching my babies. can't you work it into the budget? we use coupons." thanks lady, but it's not that simple...it made me feel horrible. i am now close to being able to SAH and feel so blessed but even now am questioning that, i guess guilt is just part of being a mama. :P keep telling yourself you're working for your son, i have pics of clara at work and when things get rough i look @ them and remind myself i'm here for her. but it's still soooo hard. 
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  • I missed whatever Blonde posted.  I am sad about this.

    I just had a glass of wine.  One glass and my arms and fingers are tingling.  Why am I such an easy drunk?   

    I want more kids.  At least one more.  I cannot imagine that our family is complete yet.  It makes me sad to think that this may be the last time I cuddle a baby of mine, or nurse one to sleep, or smell that amazing sweet baby smell.  Omg, WHY are my hormones raging like this?  I know J would like more kids, but he also is not open to the idea of having another anytime soon (3-4 years...).  And I agree that I want a little bit of a break... but I have this lingering notion that this may be it for us.  And I am incredibly sad about this.

    Cole, I need your psychic lady's info so I can see if I have another baby.  :-P

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    madame - i know exactly how you feel...i remember posting something on FB once about not wanting to go back and my cousin said "i never even considered someone else watching my babies. can't you work it into the budget? we use coupons." thanks lady, but it's not that simple...it made me feel horrible. i am now close to being able to SAH and feel so blessed but even now am questioning that, i guess guilt is just part of being a mama. :P keep telling yourself you're working for your son, i have pics of clara at work and when things get rough i look @ them and remind myself i'm here for her. but it's still soooo hard. 
    Thanks! I am doing all of the above, and most of the time I just grin and bear it, lately it's been tougher.
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    madame - i know exactly how you feel...i remember posting something on FB once about not wanting to go back and my cousin said "i never even considered someone else watching my babies. can't you work it into the budget? we use coupons." thanks lady, but it's not that simple...it made me feel horrible. i am now close to being able to SAH and feel so blessed but even now am questioning that, i guess guilt is just part of being a mama. :P keep telling yourself you're working for your son, i have pics of clara at work and when things get rough i look @ them and remind myself i'm here for her. but it's still soooo hard. 

    Yep. Clipping coupons is all it takes. Eyeroll. Sometimes the woman carries the insurance and sometimes the woman makes more than the man. and sometimes, just sometimes, the couple wants to live a lifestyle of a dual income family.

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