I can't bear to say it any other way than that way. I did a lot better than I thought I was going to do. I got a little teary a few times, but I didn't cry like I thought I would. I guess that's a sign that I've really come to terms with what's happened. I think about him a lot, and I hope that he finally found the peace that he had been missing. I told the man that I'm dating what happened to Rob, and to my shock he was caring and understanding. I thought for sure he would have run screaming the other direction, but he didn't. Last night he put on a comedy which helped take my mind off of the day.
I kept getting lost in my head thinking about an entire year of time. A lot of time I spent in a daze of hurt and sadness. Then the sadness turned to anger. The anger directed more at his parents than at him. Then finally realizing that I needed to let go of the anger to move on. It took me a long time to let the anger go, because that kept me going for a long time. I think that when I finally let go of the anger good things started happening for me. A friend called me with a great job opportunity, I feel happier than I felt about myself in a long time, and I met someone who adds to that happiness.
I wanted to thank you ladies for being so supportive over the last year! I've never met any of you (I hope to change that at the cookie exchange), but you all are great group of women and I'm lucky to know you all.
Re: Yesterday was a year since my ex Rob passed away...
big hugs! You are a very strong woman who has survived a lot of heartache in the past couple years.
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Huge hugs. You are a strong woman and am so sorry for all you've been through....BUT, it sounds like you are in a good place right now, and I'm really happy to hear that.
Hope to meet you at the cookie exchange!
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