Yesterday was the worst day I've had in a long time. I just need to vent.
1) Judd's grandfather was finally given a diagnosis. He's been in and out of the hospial for weeks. He has stage 4 cancer and have decided not to opperate. He is being discharged from the hospital today and they have contacted hospice. This is the same healthy older man that bought himself a bike for Christmas last year and rode in up and down the street Christmas morning like a little kid. Judd is completely in denial and showing no emotion while his family is a complete wreck since this is the first grandparent.
2) Judd and his company had to lay-off 12 of their employees unexpectedly yesterday. All of these people had no idea it was coming and many were friends of ours. Judd and I could hardly sleep the night before knowing what was coming for them. The fact that they had no idea and it was December 1st was even worse.
3) I got my first bill for my student loans in the mail. $700 a month!! That's insane and takes up a large portion of my new paycheck. Judd was so overwhelmed that he wants to stop trying to have a baby, which obviously hasn't been successful yet, saying that we can't possibly afford kids on top of my loans. He can't see that this is how it's going to be for many years and kids would have to be in that time frame.
On top of everything, I'm almost living on dayquil because of my cold at work. I just want to cry.
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