May 2008 Weddings
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life updates
it's slow.... so what's going on with you guys?
Me:39 Dx LPD, Fibroid, AMA and all that goes with that. H:37 Dx low motility and low morphology. TTC since 3/12. Clomid 8/12 and 9/12: BFN. 11/12 on a break for Myomectomy sched. 11/26. Resume TTC early 2013.
Re: life updates
us: not pregnant. i want to be a mom but sometimes i wonder if i really do. confused. h has been taking overtime every saturday for so long now it feels routine. he keeps taking it "while he can get it" but now it just feels like he works 6 days a week. not mad because we need the money, but i miss him.
taking kitty back to the vet today. he still has a lump on his arm that hasn't gone away. i want to make sure the vet still thinks it's a reaction to the sutures. meanwhile our other cat with the heart prob who is not spayed and was peeing, sleeps in the basement at night with our other cat who is notoriously loud at night. it's working okay. when the weather gets better we'll take her to VA Tech to be spayed.
i'm still be suffering with depression since weaning off my anti depressants and have started taking Sam-e. i also joined the gym and have been working out every day or going to yoga to help lift my mood with the endorphins. i have lost about 13 pounds but weight loss seems to have stopped. someone i hadn't seen in awhile said yesterday, "have you lost a LOT of weight?" that was nice. i feel like even though i've plateau'd it's starting to show more - maybe i'm losing inches or not losing because of the notorious "muscle weight," which i sometimes think we just say to make ourselves feel better.
work has gotten busier which is nice because i went through a really slow/worrisome period in august. i'm still not sure what my future holds though with that.
i bought a ticket last week to go home to l.a. again in january. can't wait!
I am avoiding my responsibilities by drinking coffee and playing online for 20 minutes.
I need to clean the house. I wanted to go to the gym. Need to go grocery shopping. It's flippin cold outside. 42 degrees is too cold, man. We have a rehearsal dinner to go to tonight (Gabby is the flowergirl and J is a reader in the wedding) and an open house for the school we will be sending the girls to. I am going to the open house with Genna, and J is taking Gabby to the rehearsal - I'll meet them there afterwards at dinner. The wedding is tomorrow and I am freaking out over the fact that I have so much to do and pack up (we are staying in a hotel room downtown) with two kids. I am so overwhelmed that I am just sitting on my arse instead. THAT will solve everything, right? :-P
Can I ask for vibes here? J has been at his "new" job since April and come January will start training for his new position. It's more money but involves some travel (not far - two hours away at the farthest) and is in a field that he has never had experience in before. He's so excited and I just really really want this to work out for him (not just US, but HIM because it means a lot to him, but for us too because, hello, more money, more freedom, happier life yo).
Other than that, I got nothin' going on. Just living day to day.
I will probably delete later as it seems as some of my posts have been found in my history and read... ughhh !!!
Only 19 more days till I leave for a 12 day vacation (cruise with my momma) from my awkward living situation, work, and being woken up at 630am by dogs... although I will miss Nala so much. I am looking forward to the cruise so bad but I was kind of depressed picking out excursions the other day because I am going to be doing alot of them on my own. My mom likes city tours and I like beach and active type excursions. In Barbados I plan on doing a turtle encounter and in St. Lucia I am going to go ziplining... those are the only 2 I have picked out so far though.
Once I get back and get out of vacation mode I guess the plan is to start getting our divorce rolling. We hope to be able to do it ourselves without lawyers but everytime I think we will be able to agree on a settlement agreement something comes up where there might be a fight... like the house... so fingers crossed everything works out with that.
I have really been enjoying the "separated" life and finally doing things that I enjoy doing and having people in my life that enjoy doing things with me because I have never had that before... I was so use to doing things on my own.
I am also back into working out as I am trying to kick off my last 5 lbs and then I will be setting another goal of losing another 10-15 lbs. I also hope to start doing some 5ks next year which is something I have always wanted to do but never had the support.
Hmmm... I think that is all I have going on right now.
First weight loss goal - 40lbs... DONE! Second weight loss goal - 17lbs...
We are just really trying to do all the last things that we need to do before the baby gets here. I am kind of in freak out mode that it is getting so close. We could technically have a baby anytime in the next 2-7 weeks and that is a little too real for comfort sake.
Other than that life has been fairly hectic lately. It seems like we always have a million things to do on the weekends these days. Long gone are the days when I used to rarely have anything planned. A lot of it has been fun stuff though. Like this weekend we have J's union holiday party (a fancy schmancy affair) and maternity photos.
Going nuts over here. I called the city on my landlord about our bedbug situation. Yes, we STILL have them. He was all up in arms about it not being his responsibility, and he tried billing us for the exterminator who did nothing. After fighting with him for months, I called the city to get him on doing anything. It resulted in being yelled and cursed at for 40 mins until he finlly said "maybe I should just give you back your deposit and we part ways" I tld him he just made my Christmas and agreed, and he floundered trying to get me to change my mind. I've been scouring for a new place, but not much is turning up. J decided we should leave Feb 1st, but I'm afraid he'll be out of a job by then and we'll be *** out of finding any place. If my health was better, it wouldn't be an issue.
As for my health, I'm undergoing a lot of testing for MS. Yay me. The neurologist feels pretty strongly that it may be the case. Or I may have Lyme's. She's less sure of that one, but is getting me tested for that as well, since many symptoms overlap. I'll be hooked up to a 72 hour EEG next mon, tues and weds, hence why I won't be able to pack up. I'm glad I left work, because at least I can get my health in order.
We've got a lot coming up between now and New Year's.
Saturday is H's birthday. We aren't doing much since we don't have a sitter. The 3 of us will go out to eat in the afternoon.
The 13th H is getting all 4 of his wisdom teeth taken out. He's being knocked out so K and I have to go along and wait for him to get done. No idea how his recovery will go or how much of a baby he'll be with the pain. So yeah, not looking forward to that very much.
Then either Thursday night or Friday morning we're off to the Upper Peninsula (UP for those in the know!
). We have a graduation/birthday party for my cousin. Really looking forward to it since a lot of that family hasn't met K yet. We'll come back sometime Monday.
Then it is getting everything ready for Christmas. We'll have H's family here at some point that day. No plans have been made yet.
The following week will be getting ready for my family Christmas/New Year's on the east side of the state.
So a busy few weeks.
Other than that life is boring here. Everyday is spent with the little man. I guess there is a day care at the hospital where H works. I want him to look into us using it. Just knowing that I could get a break from the little man sounds nice. We'll have to see. I wish a part-time job opportunity would just fall into my lap. Not likely, huh?
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We're coming up on our 3rd year in Italy (we moved in Mar '09)! Where did that time go? Have had some amazing opportunities-- personally and professionally.
Around the holidays in '09 I got pregnant, but things didn't work out in early '10, so this time of year's always a bit sad. I mean, I'm not a hot mess or anything, but it's disappointing.
My BFF's coming for her annual visit the last week of Dec, so I am looking forward to that. She'll be here for almost 2wks. AND we're going to Morocco for the weekend! How cool (well, warm actually) is that?!
My biggest hope for the new year is good news/health for my sister. She was diagnosed with breast cancer about a month ago. Still scoping the severity, so no firm answers. She will for sure need both radiation and chemo though.
Her prognosis will very much impact whether we stay on in Italy or start looking to head home.
Nothing exciting is going on here and I think that's my problem. I am bored. I've never been this bored in my life. It's not just the becoming an adult thing either. I love my H and we have a great time together, but I want friends. Not work friends (who I really like), but my own friends. Ugh.
I also have my hopes up WAY to high for being pregnant this month. I'm supposed to start my period on my mom's bday while we'll be home. I would LOVE to find out I'm pregnant that day to share with her. All the other months I've been sad, but I think this would be the straw that finally breaks my back and makes me cry. Double Ugh.
Other than that I really don't have anything different in my life. Ceramics class is going well and I enjoy it, but I think I'm just doing it more to have something to do than because I LOVE it. I can only make so many lumpy vases, you know? I feel like I should start taking classes at the gym instead, but the gym makes me feel so uncomfotable so I know I'll never go.
That's about all that I've got going on.
Things are basically regular for us but really crazy for me at work. About 3 weeks ago, there was a tragedy with an old client. It's hit me really hard and I'm having a really difficult time professionally dealing with it. It's really affecting my attitude at work and stuff. Today I had another rough conversation with a foster parent and I just broke down in my supervisor's office afterwards. I basically feel like telling everyone to f&&ck off.
I can't figure out when I'm ovulating and it's starting to really piss me off. So yea, I'm not pregnant. But, my BFF who decided to jump on the "not not trying" bandwagon is pregnant. Awesome.
I feel like I BOMBED my final last night. I could have started crying in the middle of it. It was a multiple-choice open book exam. Each question was a sentence taken out of the book, so if you didn't know exactly where each sentence was located, you had to read everything. Who the hell remembers where every sentence is located in a text book?? We will see. It's worth 20 points out of the total 100 for the class.
We are going to book flights tonight for a vacation in January for FL! I'm psyched about this. We'll have something good to look forward to. Get out of MA for a bit, get away from work. Spend more quality time together. It should be really nice.
OKAY THEN.
Just dealing with this @#$%#$%# flood right now. So exciting. Would it be so much to ask for the adjuster to say we need new carpet? Cuz that would be fantastic.
Waiting on my niece to be born is so exciting to me. I cannot wait to finally be an aunt. I never thought I would have to wait so long (I am the youngest).
We have a ridiculously busy month. I am excited about some of it, not so much other parts.
I feel like I'm floating along most days. H and I both feel like we are in a rut at work. The time we spend at home is great, but work is difficult for both of us right now. On top of that we work different shifts so we only get to see each other a few hours a day.
I just feel like everyone has something going on except us. All of my friends have children and don't have the time to get together anymore. We still aren't sure if kids are in the future for us. I wish I could make more friends, but how the heck do you do that at this age without children?
Of course winter doesn't bring out my cheeriest side either. Right now I just want to go somewhere warm and sunny.
sticky baby dust to md and kare and anyone else i missed, and t&ps for you blonde.
work sucks but i only have until tuesday and then i am a sahm
i am happy and grateful and excited but also nervous and scared...about making ends meet and about being "good" at it and about not having as much adult interaction during the day. clara is pretty great. 
two of my friends are going through divorces, both got married after us...it's so sad, and one of them has a 10 month old baby boy. on the bright side of things, one of them was estranged from both of us and having a baby and going through the divorce has actually brought her "back" to us in a strange way and i'm glad we are able to be there for her.
dh loves his job and works a lot. same old same old. i'm trying to find the balance between wife and mom and employee and everything else and sometimes i think i put our relationship on the back burner, trying to get better about that.
just bought tickets to a friends wedding in april in florida and to another friends wedding in alaska in july.
vibes to your h, nola. good luck with everything surrounding the divorce, blonde. city - i really hope it's not MS. i really hope it's not lymes, too. VA - i'm sorry about your sister. i hope she will be okay.
Ditto this, so rude of me not acknowledging.
For a board that can often be quiet, we certainly have a lot of "stuff" going on. Hopefully the new year brings new positives to our lives.
Life's good here.
I really miss having friends. In Florida my coworkers were my friends and we went out all the time. Here I have "friends" at work, but we never do anything outside of work. I live too far away from people.
Work is going well and horrible at the same time. I got switched to a different group of kids a few months ago and I love it. My supervisor and coworkers are awesome. But I got my certification over a month ago and the company has done nothing to recognize it. I emailed the director about having more responsibilities/a raise, and she says there's nothing for me. Even though they've promoted two people since I started. I'm more than annoyed that I have more schooling and am certified than all of the supervisors, but they refuse to acknowledge it. And I'm tired of driving over an hour to work.
Things with H and I are going great. We've gotten over a lot of the living together issues we had when we first moved in. We've cut down on the time we spend with his family because I never felt like I had a weekend to relax. So I'm no longer as annoyed with him as I was. We have a good routine down now.The doctors appointment is set for the Friday before Christmas. We're taking a break from sex until then, don't want to make it worse if its physical.
Ava just hit 13 months...she is now practicing standing alone..it's the cutest thing and she'll be walking soon which we're not ready for. Her personality is hilarious these days.
Allison is doing well...measuring a little smaller than Ava at 5 months but her legs look super long haha. We'll schedule our 3D about 10 weeks from now.
I'm super exhausted these days. With working full time, and then taking care of Ava and being pregnant especially with just being pregnant last year haha but I'm making it work.
H has to have oral surgery next week to remove his impacted wisdom teeth...don't ask me why his dentist before never did...just more money yay!
Navigating the MIL thing is tough but thankfully we'll be getting rid of the bed as soon as she stays for Christmas....I'm now concerned with the relationship between her and my BIL...he's even taking her to his Christmas parties and I just see this blowing up in everyone's face but mine...le sigh
H may have an oppurtunity next summer to go to a different company which may take us to Houston...should be interesting.
That's it for now haha