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No Christmas miracle for me..
AF just arrived...
I am so beyond frustrated right now, its
not even funny. I was so hoping IUI and clomid was going to the answer
to my prayers. But instead I got a $ 700 bill, lots of heart ache and
another box of tampons. This infertility crap is getting so old..
How can God give me 2 pregnancies earlier this year and be sooooooooo cruel and take them away.. and now give me nothing? What did I do so bad that deserves this torture month after month...
I am having such a
hard time with this. I have been crying for 2 days now. DH tries to help
but tells me I am crazy and obsessed.. and that I need to chill out... I
have tried an infertility therapist but did not get much out of it. I just dont know what to do..
~Cheryl and Frank~ 06/28/08
TTC since Sept 2009, 2 uterine septum surgeries (Jan and March 2011), 1 chemical pregnancy (4/11), 1 ectopic pregnancy (8/11), and missed m/c at 11w5d (3/12)
Failed IVF #1 (July 2012)
FET #1 October/November 2012 BFP, m/c at 5 3/7
February - operative hysteroscopy
Late April/May FET #2
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TTC since Sept 2009, 2 uterine septum surgeries (Jan and March 2011), 1 chemical pregnancy (4/11), 1 ectopic pregnancy (8/11), and missed m/c at 11w5d (3/12)
Failed IVF #1 (July 2012)
FET #1 October/November 2012 BFP, m/c at 5 3/7
February - operative hysteroscopy
Late April/May FET #2
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Re: No Christmas miracle for me..
I'm so sorry Cheryl. My heart absolutely breaks for you. There really are no words.
Just know that we are all here for you no matter what.
I agree with every word of this. I wish there was something I/we could do to help...you are in my prayers.
I agree with every word of this. I wish there was something I/we could do to help...you are in my prayers.
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I agree with Lyns! I am so so sorry, Cheryl. Big hugs to you. Allow yourself some time to be frustrated and upset, its ok. But don't give up hope, I truly believe in my heart that you will be a mommy.
Always here for you!
I am so sorry Cheryl. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
I don't know if this will help, but my friend has been trying for two years now and has really enjoyed this blog, about dealing with infertility issues from a Christian perspective. She recommended it to me and I've really be blessed by the author's insight and perspective.
http://rethinkingmythinking.info/
This post starts to explain the author's journey (she did have some success with IVF, but not every time, so it's an interesting story):
http://rethinkingmythinking.info/2010/07/hello-world-2/
And this is how she begins:
Are you having difficulty conceiving a child? Are you struggling with grief, isolation, and pain? Is your faith being shaken? Well sister, here is a place for you to come.
Maybe it will help? If not, ignore me completely and just know that we all love and support you!
Oh Cheryl, I'm so sorry. I was really hoping this was it for you guys. I could have written the bolded part myself, I understand exactly what you mean. I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better, but I know that I can't.
Just try to take it day by day Cheryl. Get that hurt and pain out, cry it out, and then keep on going. You've made it 2+ years and it sucks and it hurts, but you have to keep on keeping on. I know that is easier said than done, but you have to. Take it hour by hour if you need to, as long as you keep on going. I'm really sorry that DH doesn't understand how this is affecting you too, I know that makes it that much harder. I am pretty sure you have my phone # from Cut the Crap (If not, FB message me and I will give it to you.) Anytime you need to talk or vent or whatever, feel free to text me or call me. I'm not sure it really helps anything but try to remember that you are not alone.
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I don't know what to say, aside from copying what these lovely ladies have already said. Just know that you have friends on this board, and we will hear your prayers and help you where we can.
I agree with this, and I'm sure its a sentiment you've already felt.
I'm just so sorry. I really wish there was something I could do. It breaks my heart that a woman who would be such a wonderful mama is having so much trouble. I'm still praying for you, and as everyone has reminded you, please know that you can come talk to us anytime. It does NOT make you crazy obsessed. It makes you human.
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I really have no words either Cheryl. I am SO sorry that you (and some of the other ladies on this board) are having to deal with this. It just seems so cruel and unfair. Please know that you're in my prayers and we're all here to support you whenever you need us!!!
This. I'm praying for you lady.
This. Take care of yourself and I will keep you in my prayers.
m/c 7/17/10
Dx: MFI- 3% morph
IUIs: Gonal-F + Ovidrel + b2b IUI= BFNs
IVF with ICSI= BFP! EDD 11/25/11
3/18- Beta #1 452! 3/20- Beta #2 1,026!! 3/27- First u/s- TWINS!
Our twin boys arrived at 36w5d due to IUGR and a growth discordance
Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.
I just saw this. I'm so sorry, Cheryl. You didn't do anything to deserve this; life just sucks sometimes.
After the beat-down you have received by this process, I don't blame you for feeling discouraged and hopeless. But when you are down in the dumps, we will try to uplift you, and when you can't bear to hope for your miracle, we'll do it for you.
Keep your chin up, Cheryl. *hugs*
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Just seeing this, Cheryl. My heart breaks for you. You have every reason and right in the world to be mad, and upset, and frustrated and angry and, and, and.....
But, please don't, for even one minute, feel as though this is happening because you deserve it - because you don't.
I am sure it's made even worse by the Holiday season (aren't all sad things made worse this time of year?) I know you've given a therapist a shot in the past and it didn't really help, but maybe now that you're further along in your journey and have moved on to IUI maybe try it again? Or maybe see if your OB/RE can suggest a group therapy session with others just like you all struggling with IF?
We're all here for you, Cheryl. We will cry with you when you're sad, and cheer for your when it happens. Take care of yourself.
I think the other girls have said everything so well already, and I echo everything they said. You did nothing to deserve this. It's hard not to become obsessive about something you want so badly.
One of our former June '08ers writes often about her battle and emotions with infertility on her blog http://www.seemichelleblog.com/
I don't have any amazing words of encouragement, but let your emotions tell you what you need. We're thinking about you and routing for you. Hugs!