Hi Girls! This is totally private board worthy but WTH...
Good: I just got back from Hawaii. It was AMAZING! It was completely what I needed. Even better news, I have a great tan and feel like I'm in the right time zone so I don't have to be Nest MIA anymore! Yay!
Bad: My best friend (lives in Hawaii) had a baby (Quinn Grace) while I was there. While this is amazingly awesome and BY FAR the highlight of the trip, the timing kinda sucked too. (See "Ugly")
Ugly: I got a BFP (!!!) a few weeks ago. As it turns out, the cycle I was complaining about a few weeks ago was actually successful and I had no clue. I have never been so happy in my entire life. I took a test randomly and at an odd time of day and it was a BFP! I was actually amazed. Neither of us could believe it. That moment beat any other moment I have ever experienced. AMAZING. I called my doctor to see if I could come in for a blood test then since I was going out of town. I went in the next morning.
As I continued temping, I noticed my temperature NEVER went up, even after ovulation (that's why I thought I was out). I ended up going in after the blood test and asked for my progesterone to be tested asap. I just knew it was too low.We had planned to have my progeterone checked after this cycle anyway but I told them to do it then or I was going to the ER. I'm glad I followed my instincts. I had continued taking pregnancy tests that week and each test got fainter.
We bought a Christmas ordiment/ picture frame and had planned to write a note from the baby to our parents and tell them Christmas morning. On Christmas eve I started cramping and the doctor called that evening. My progesterone had plummeted, showing that I was currently having a miscarriage when the progesterone test was taken. I had already known for a day or so but I didn't want to believe it. My OB appointment this week was changed to an appointment to talk about hormone testing.
After all of this, I am so glad this has happened. Those few days were still the happiest days of my life. I've been suprised by how strong I have been and how wonderful my DH is. I wanted to share with you girls because I felt like I needed to type all of this out for my own well-being and because you guys are some of the only people I know who will understand.
Thank for listening, Jessica
Re: Good, Bad and the Ugly... (long)
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I'm so sorry for your loss
You are so strong to be able to come out of it with a positive outlook! I'm glad you had a great trip otherwise
I'm so sorry to hear about what you are going through
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I totally agree!
Hon... I'm so sorry! That must be tough. I can't even imagine but I think you have an amazing and positive perspective. That's inspiring and I'm totally jealous of the Hawaii trip.
Thinking about you as you embark on this journey with your OB.
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#2-BFP 08-6-11 ~ Due 04/18 ~ born via c-section April 22, 2012
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Thank you girls! Your kind words mean so much to me.
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This 110%. Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you.