I took a very large sleeping pill last night and crashed since I haven't slept in over a week. Not eating anything hasn't helped with my energy level but I feel to sick to eat. I actually had a scheduled counseling appt last night and it helped alot. She told me that I'm going to be a target right now because he's stressed and I'm there all the time. I went home and had a talk with my mom and step dad too. I explained that I'm only one person and this "I'm ultimately responsible for my son" is bs and that if someone else is watching him then they need will be held responsible for any messes he makes under their care.
My mom understood and she said she's been there in that being a single parent to a toddler is a losing battle. She was always coming home to toys out or dishes not done or something of the sort. She also explained that my step dad is driving her nuts because of his war path because he is flipping out on everyone even on issues that are her's to handle how she would like to. My sister and her fiance are coming over sat to help move things out to my storage unit and i'm transfering things to my one which is the largest they have to cut out my second storage payment. We're then donating all of the toys that my son hasn't touched in the last 6 months. Especially since he has 2 really expensive toys that are much more educational than some of the things in his toy box.
All in all I think the melt down was much needed and help me get it out of my system. Please keep your fingers crossed and say a prayer I'll hear something back next week on my house. I know some had asked about taking more out in student loans but right now I'm at the perfect debt/income ratio and don't want to test it. It's my income and credit alone buying this house and the payments are exactly what I would pay in an apartment. Plus I'd be walking in with at least $90k in equity on this house. The lawn is super small which would be less yardwork and I'd have a warranty on the the house for a whole year, then can renew each year.
Re: feeling much better today
I am glad you're feeling better today.
I am crossing fingers the house works out for you.
They see us rollin'...they be hatin'.
I'm happy you're feeling better. Some gentle advice - GL with the house...it will close eventually, but you should also have a plan B (mostly for the interim). You may not get into the house as soon as you'd like.