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Friday vents/confessions/AWs or whatever
I hate this day already and it's not even 10am. FI's grandfather passed away last night. He was really sick so it was kind of expected. They removed his feeding tube yesterday so we knew it was going to happen relatively fast, but it still sucks.
I took the dogs to daycare this morning and the people didn't even showed up to open on time. I waited around for about 20 minutes, but nothing so I drove them home. Once I got to work, they were all logged in and there (can see them on my gchat). It's too far for me to go home and drive them back now without missing a significant amount of work time, blah.
We have been having continued problems with the Murph and I feel like a failure of a dog owner. I am having a really tough time deciding on what to do about it.
Re: Friday vents/confessions/AWs or whatever
I'm so sorry, doglove. I hope you and FI got a chance to say good bye, and you can both find some peace in this. Also, you are not a failure of a dog owner. Stuff happens with pets all the time and no one can stop it.
For me,
I want to complain about my right knee (again). I'm finally in physical therapy for it, which is great, but it means 6 weeks of not using my legs. I also have to do therapy at home twice a day. So, since I don't want to turn in to a total blob I did upper body this morning. I usually wake up at 5 to work out and am done by 6ish. With modified and shortened strength training plus therapy, I was going at it until almost 6:20. I absolutely refuse to wake up earlier than 5. I just want this damn thing better again so I can go for a run. Why is this too much to ask!?
What kind of problems?
Thanks feinic. Motzie, we have been having issues w/ him for the last two years or so w/ fear and aggression towards meeting strangers and hostility with greeting dogs while on a leash. He's bitten FI's sister and myself twice (again over this past Christmas) in an attempt to bite other people, but I have gotten in the way so he doesn't get them. We have worked with behaviorists and trainers and we haven't been able to find someone who can really help us and it isn't clear whether these issues can be resolved or managed. He is very protective over us and our apartment/car or any space we occupy and will go after anyone who comes into his terrority. We've worked w/ greeting strangers on neutral grounds and introducing them into our space, but this is difficult because we don't have a lot of visitors so it's hard for us to continue to enforce good behaviors.
It's stressful traveling with him because he gets stressed and anxious and acts out out even more. We live in apartments so we routinely see other people walking their dogs on leashes and he reacts to them. Most people want to meet him because he is so goofy and cute looking. I always tell them as soon as they approach us that he has to meet them in a specific way and no one listens and tries to approach him without my instsruction so then he tries to go after them.
The main issues are fearfulness and aggression. I'm not sure FI and I have the right resources to help and it is so frustrating because we have tried and both really love this dog. I am always stressed out over it though, which I'm sure doesn't help him either.
I'm sorry, DL. That sucks.
confession: I want to start my own cupcake/ pastry/ gift-basket business. I hate cooking actual food, but I don't mind baking.
vent: it sucks getting readjusted to standing on my feet for 8 or more hours a day. And I hate the fact that the cake airbrush dye, ends up in my nose, causing me to sneeze out little blue chunks. (I would wear a mask, when I have my own business, but the other decorators where I'm at don't wear one, and I don't want to look like a dork.
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aw: I'm finally making over $10 an hour.
I'm sorry, DL
T&Ps to your fi's family and hugs to the DL household. I hope you will figure out what is best for you guys and the Murph soon. My little dog buddy has a lot of issues and it's hard to know how to best handle things, sometimes, especially when what you try doesn't seem to work. It gets really discouraging.
My Friday thing is that Mr. Bang and I have been in a rut and I keep having sex dreams about my ex non-boyfriend. (We were basically FWB for 2+ years, ended on good terms, but we don't keep in regular contact.)
I think it's because ex-NBF represents a very carefree lifestyle that I know I will not have with Mr. Bang. Ex-NBF travels a lot, makes a lot of money, drives a flashy car, and has this whole "I work for the government doing secret things" going on. So I think my subconscious is trying to work out my feelings about the life I am choosing and the things I'm trading in order to be in this relationship - such as child-free weekends, extra money, or international vacations.
I know that Mr. Bang is the person I want to be with, and this relationship is exponentially better and healthier than what I had with ex-NBF, and if I was going on an international vacation, for example, I would want it to be with Mr. Bang. But I'm struggling a little with the daily reality of our lives right now, so my subconscious is acting up. It's frustrating.
Ugh DL, I can just imagine how frustrated and powerless you must feel with this Murph situation. I'm sorry you're dealing with that.
I have one of each:
Confession: I feel like a failure because H and I have not been sticking to a budget and it's resulting in negative consequences. During the sale of our house and the move, we acquired some debt, then we bought two cars. I just feel like shiit that I can't keep the money sitch under control at the moment.
Vent: We are heading to CT this weekend because H's closest childhood friend will be there. They haven't seen each other since our wedding and H really wanted to make the effort to get down there and spend some time with him. Said friend has made zero plans and we're supposed to be getting together tomorrow. I just hate having no plan! Ack!
AW: I am starting to feel confident in the things I'm learning in my YTT program and am so excited to get started teaching! Our "graduation" is in mid-February and then I'll be able to make people Om on cue!
Doglove, I'm sorry about your dog problems. It's hard loving a problem dog, but I'm sure that you're doing a great job.
Confession: DH is away on business for a few days. I didn't tell my mom that he's out of town because I'm afraid that she'll show up at my house (3 hours away) to "help me with the baby." I'm really enjoying the peace and quiet.
DL, :-( I'm sorry about Murph. How frustrating to know what an awesome pup he is and other people don't necessarily see it because he's always protective of you and FI. And tiring to try and curtail his behavior all the time!
Vent: Work has gotten more and more frustrating, and I am seriously considering applying for a few other jobs on campus just to see what happens. If I'd be qualified enough to even be considered for something else here, that would be awesome. Extra money wouldn't hurt, either.
Confession: This cold shoulder thing with the guy from LA is upsetting me more than I'd like. I forgot what it was like to date someone who played head games. Blah. However, I am seeing another guy more and more lately and he is very, very good to me and sweet and we get along great. (Not Elvis, sadly...not sure anything will happen with him). Hope for men-kind everywhere.
AW: Weight loss total is 62.5 pounds now. Whee!
I'm really, really proud of Gault. I'm hoping her motivation seeps through my computer screen so I can get started on my own diet/fitness regime. I know you're calorie-restricted Gault, but how much are you exercising?
I'm packing up my condo this weekend. It's not going to be TOO bad, but I'm dreading the outside storage closet. Whiiiiiiiiine.
I'm alone in the office this afternoon and I get to work from home on Monday. Sweeeeeeeet!
I'm sorry about FI's grandfather and Murph, DL. That's got to be really stressful for you right now. I hope you are able to work something out. (PS. There's a Sox shirt on clearance at Macys for $7!!)
My vent is that I am trying to clean out my apt and I just really hate doing it. I am finding it super difficult to motivate myself, even though I know it's all worth it and I will love all the extra space when I am done. Also, I have a headache and I am hungry. And that's all I can think about at the moment.
Except... WAY TO GO GAULT!!!!
I'm sorry about your FI's grandfather, dog.
So there's this girl at work who's kind of irking me. She has a little more power than the rest of it and really likes that. But I work nights and she works days, so we only work together for maybe an hour or two in overlap, at which time I am usually stocking the shipment stuff. On Wednesday (after not working since Saturday) when I came in, she told me that I am not doing anything when I work and should be cleaning, restocking candy and soda, etc. How she knows what I'm doing is beyond me, unless she's spying on me or something (which would be pretty hard to do given that there aren't cameras). Also, I AM doing those things. Every night. There is a lot of downtime during the evening shift because it's primarily people gaming on that side of the store, and buying candy/soda every so often. So most of the evening leading up to closing (when the cleaning starts) is spent hanging around and talking to the guys who aren't currently gaming. And that's what we're SUPPOSED to do.
So I talked to it with the guy I work nights with since he's the one training me, and he said I'm doing fine and doing more than most people do, so I shouldn't worry and that the other girl is intimidated by any co-worker who has breasts. That made me feel a little better, even though I don't really get the intimidation thing. I'm not after her job or anything. She had that issue at GameStop too, though, as I recall (we never worked together, but we worked with the same people at different times, and it was pretty well-known). So I'm not worrying too much about it now. I have my first-month review at the end of the month, with the real boss, and I am hoping that turns out okay, but I'm pretty confident that I've done a good job with things so far.
DL, I'm sorry about your FI's grandfather and about the struggles you're having with the Murph.
Gault, congrats on the weight loss! You are kicking serious ass!
My confession/vent: One of my clients is behaving in a way that makes me want to fire her. SUPER needy, trying to pull in attention from everyone, making superficial self-harm gestures over and over and over and over, expressing SI because she knows it means I have to spend time with her, etc. I spent 7 hours with her last week, 4 of those while she was checking herself into the ER/hospital. I've spent at least 3 hours with her this week. She's trying to take my time away from other clients because she can't handle sharing me when she's like this. I feel so badly for my other clients because they're not getting my best right now. It was nice to find out that her social worker is feeling similarly drained right now. I think the most frustrating part is that she seems to have regressed to 6 months ago and it appears very calculated. (Anyone who wants to, look up Borderline Personality Disorder...that's the rollercoaster she's on right now.)
AWs: I got a haircut last Saturday and have been getting tons of compliments on it. My bosses at work are also acting in a way that seems to suggest they value me and want to keep me around (this job historically has a high turnover rate). I'm going to the symphony with my old roomie a little bit later this month and am really looking forward to it.
Thank you
I still can't really believe I've dropped this much. And only halfway done.
Not much exercise right now. It's bad. Next week I've resolved to go back to the gym and start Zumba again, even if I only do a half-hour instead of the whole 50 minutes. The weight loss has resulted in some...loose skin issues that I know would be helped with some toning.
I'm not tsk-tsking your exercise, LOL. Just personally curious since I recently dropped my caloric intake as well. It's made me a lot more tired, which means my motivation to exercise is nil. I figure that once I get used to the smaller portions, etc., I can phase the exercise back in. It hasn't stopped me from beating myself up over the issue though.