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Our tech team has launched updates to The Nest today. As a result of these updates, members of the Nest Community will need to change their password in order to continue participating in the community. In addition, The Nest community member's avatars will be replaced with generic default avatars. If you wish to revert to your original avatar, you will need to re-upload it via The Nest.
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Thank you.
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Bringing back the crazy
Actually, no. I'm not. I had a melt down yesterday that lasted 9 hours. BF and I are taking a break. I'm going inpatient on Monday. I want to talk to my therapist first. Hard to say it but yeah you guys were right. I'm a hot mess and I need help.
I'm sure no one cares, but whatever. Being on this board helps me vent a little.
Thanks for listening.
Any way the wind blows...
Re: Bringing back the crazy
100% agree. I am glad you are getting the help you need.
This. I'm proud of you for talking the necessary but difficult steps to better your life. Please keep us updated on your progress.
Yay, this makes me so happy to hear. I'm glad you're doing what you need to do for yourself. I'm so proud of you, really. Please keep us updated.
We do care. Any chance you can go inpatient now?
I'm really, really glad that you're getting help. Like PiP said, we do care, which is why we're taking the time to offer you advice.
Take care of yourself. You sound like you're on the right path to doing that.
A lot of us do care. It was very mature of you to come back and admit that you need help.
Good luck to you
Oh honey, I'm right there with ya. Over the past six months there have been a lot of days where I really felt like just checking myself in. There were days that I just felt like I couldn't function.
What's helped me? Lorazepam. Weekly therapy appointments. Realizing it is ok to be sad and grieve because something sad happened to me. Realizing I have to grieve to get past this pain. My son. That little boys smile lights my world, warms my heart.
I'm really glad to hear this. Use that time to really focus on yourself. You'll get through it.
Good luck.
I was going to go last night, but I wanted to get all of the FMLA paperwork filled out first and speak with my therapist. I want it all to be planned so I'm quasi prepared. Plus I cracked my molar and I need to get my tooth fixed on Saturday first.
Well, I spoke with each of my parents last night. They are supporting me 100% in whatever choice I make. My dad is going to be on call if I need him to come down and hang out with me when I'm feeling messy. They live 40 minutes from me. Other than that, BF and I are taking a break, but he is still supporting me in this battle. He told me that if I need him for any reason, he will come and be there. He's my best friend, truly. I'm not sure if I will be calling him for any reason, but it's nice to know he is there for me. I have a therapist appointment tomorrow evening (they just called me) and I will be discussing my plan of action with him.
Ditto every word of this! I'm so glad to hear you are getting the help you need. Lots of hugs for you. You will be so glad you did it.
Good. I am really glad you have a plan to help you make it until Monday (therapy, parents, etc).
I'm one more on here that cares! Good for you for taking the right steps, I hope you can stick with it and we'll be here for you to vent when you need it.
Cant wait for you to be happy!
So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.
I wanted to agree with this and really commend you for being brave enough to seek help!
Thank you all for the support and forgiving me for being blinded by myself. I'm absolutely terrified of going inpatient, but I know it's the best thing to do. I am having so many doubts about if I could break these habits and issues I have, because I ask myself, "What if this is me? What if this is who I am supposed to be?" It's frightening and disheartening. I want to be normal and feel no anxiety about walking out the door and entering the world. I want to be able to depend on myself and not be afraid to be alone, in both the relationship and physical senses. I want to want to get out of bed in the morning and enjoy life, because I did a long time ago. I just feel so broken...and defective. It's so difficult because it's like my brain is broken into two parts. The logic and reality part and the irrational fears section. I know that I am strong and beautiful and deserving of great things logically, but somehow these fears bust in and berate every ounce of logic that I know in my heart of hearts and then I'm muddled and confused. It's like I know the definition of a word but cannot use it in a sentence. It's just so frustrating.
Again, I thank you all for the support. I am motivated to fix this and interested to see the outcome of the actual me that's inside of here. Thank you for letting me vent.
I am sure it is really scary, thinking about going inpatient. But you WILL improve through treatment. It is good you can remember the times you were not like this. Use that as motivation to help you get better.