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Our tech team has launched updates to The Nest today. As a result of these updates, members of the Nest Community will need to change their password in order to continue participating in the community. In addition, The Nest community member's avatars will be replaced with generic default avatars. If you wish to revert to your original avatar, you will need to re-upload it via The Nest.
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Thank you.
Note: This only affects The Nest's community members and will not affect members on The Bump or The Knot.
Re: So bored at work...ask me anything.
How are you feeling about Monday? Did you reschedule your therapy appt--how'd it go?
If you have a "safe, peaceful place" in your head, what's it like? (like a meditative walking through a forest, laying on a beach, swimming with dolphins, etc.)
3/12 5 mi -- 49:22 Pace: 9:52
5/1 Half Marathon -- 2:11:22 Pace: 10:01
5/22 10k -- 56:29 Pace: 9:00
5/24 3.6 -- 29:03 Pace: 8:18
7/10 15k -- 1:44:46 injured Pace: 11:14
10/29 5k -- 28:24 Pace: 9:04
I am scared shltless about Monday. Oh dear baby jesus. LOL. I have a therapy appointment tonight. My counselor fit me in on an emergency basis today so I'm excited to see how that will go. I am feeling more stable today, but then again I blow hot or cold daily.
My safe, peaceful place is weird. I actually imagine having children and taking them to Disney World. I've been having this place in my head for a long time and it always involves my children (that I don't have yet).
How old were you when you started cutting yourself? Or did you just start doing it after your divorce?
How old are you now?
I did but I came back because I realized I was stupid and had my head up my anus. I'm back and seeking treatment. Going inpatient on Monday.
How did you BF react when you broke up with him?
Do you have any close female friends? If so, what do you guys do for fun?
I was 14 when I started. My brother had just gone to prison and my father was in ICU for alcohol withdrawl induced diabetic ceasures. That's the only way I remember how old I was, because I remember when those things happened.
I am 27 now.
BF understood everything very well and was accepting and supportive. I feel we will be back together when I feel better. He is my best friend. I haven't talked to him in 2 days, but I know he's there if I need him. If we don't end up back together, I think we will continue to be very close friends.
I have one close female friend and she is 18 years older than me. We go to dinner or coffee sometimes. I used to have many more but after I divorced, I lost a lot of my friends.
I'm sorry, those are terrible experiences to go through!
I wish you luck in in-patient therapy. There was a time after my divorce where I almost checked myself in too. There's no shame in getting help!
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I couldn't handle the stress in my life anymore. I had received my signed, notarized divorce papers back in the mail because my attorney had refused the certified letter, my STBXH called me bitching about why we're not divorced yet, and BF texted me snapping on me about something completely irrelevant because he wasn't feeling well. I couldn't take it. I tore hair out of my head and cried all day long. I am tired of holding the weight of the world on my shoulders. I am in debt like woah, my brother is calling me trying to sell me methadone and I can't even look at him, let alone speak to him anymore because he is just disgusting, and I just can't take it anymore. I think it was a bad day thing that made me just crack.
My brother is out of prison for the past 8 years. He was clean for a long time but now he is back on methadone/heroin/pills/stupidity.
My father has been sober since he's been out of the hospital. He drinks very very rarely, usually on holidays with our family, and he's been my rock and best friend since I turned like 18 years old.
I smoked a little pot last night, yes. But before that I had been 3 days without. I'm trying to keep it to a minimum because I do not believe that it is a bad drug. I've been functioning well without it, but I do like to toke up and laugh and get munchies and all that stuff, so I did smoke. I am trying to cut back.
Wow that is a lot to go through all at once. I'm happy to hear you're going to get the inpatient help. I had a little melt down a few years back and did intensive outpatient treatment and it helped a lot. Good luck with your treatment.
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Describe yourself in 3 words.
Quirky, rebellous, genuine.
I just wanted to wish you luck on Monday. I know going inpatient for anything is the scariest thing ever! I was there last April. It was an extremely difficult journey, but worth every ounce of fear and anxiety leading up to it. Also, it sounds cliche, but trust the process and don't let yourself leave early even if you think you're feeling better. The staff is there to support you and get you well!
((HUGS)) ...big bear ones