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Vent.
I feel like a total loser today. For real. It sucks because lately I've been very aware of my surroundings and cognitive behavior, which means progress and I'm feeling better. I am trying to be a better person and love me and do things for me, which I have been getting on quite nicely.
I just keep getting bouts of loneliness. I know I am okay on my own. I know I will get stronger and feel better and my skin will get thicker.
I am sober today, as much as I loved getting shittankeddrunk last night alone, it wasn't something I like to do often. I read some drunk texts to my one friend and I feel embarrassed and awkward because they are about missing XBF. 
I know life is this long road with bumps and holes and smooth patches of pavement, but why can't I have patience? Why is being patient sodamnhard for me?
Eh. Thanks for listening. End Vent.
Re: Vent.
Hugs!! I know its hard becoming aware of everything, especially when it sounds like its been a while since you have been. But it sounds like you are on the right track!
Its really more about self-discipline than patience. And as long as you keep it up, even though it seems like you have no patience, you will wake up one day and realize, wow, I really made it through it all.