I did the right thing....right....?

CharlottesWeb · March 2012

I've been going through some major life stuff in the last 5-6 weeks that's caused me to have considerable anxiety...not hungry (therefore not eating as much as I should and I've lost 5 lbs quite unintentionally), not sleep well- like at.all., not enjoying stuff that I normally live for (like running)...etc. I can imagine running has also suffered considerably because of lack of fuel and sleep. I feel tired...I feel just really really depressed. I don't like running right now.

Today I had a 10 mile race, and two weeks from now I have(had) a half marathon. I bonked on my long run last week, and I skipped my 10 mile race today. I woke up and just....didn't want to run. Missing two long runs in a row means I won't be running the half in two weeks. I KNOW I did the right thing by not going today. But I've never not shown up for a race and it just makes me feel even worse about myself.

I know in my head I need to take care of myself right now, and that racing today would not have gone well under the circumstances. But in my heart I just feel like a loser. FWIW, I'll be seeking therapy and and at least try to start getting my sh*t in order. But today...just...

moshi's paw · March 2012

::hugs::

You did the right thing. There will ALWAYS be other races. It sucks to not be in the now with running, but above everything else, you need to take care of yourself. You can't enjoy life, running, etc unless you do that. I hope you find your peace soon

Mrs Acorn Blue · March 2012

You did the right thing. Forcing yourself to do the races when you are not in the right physical and emotional place would probably cause more anxiety and make your overall physical health worse. Take care of yourself. I'm going through anxiety treatment myself due to some stuff that happened a few years ago that I never really dealt with. It's a long process but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I find that eating well and getting some daily exercise helps me to feel better as part of my treatment. Still, as Moshi said there are other races. Good luck and feel better!

AGsWife · March 2012

You did the right thing. I suffer from anxiety and I understand what it's like to not be able to function like you normally do, not enjoy things you normally love, feel overwhelmed, etc.

Don't feel bad about the races - there will be more.

I agree with MrsAcorn - I find that some form of daily exercise helps keep my anxiety levels in check, as does a good night's rest. I'm not above taking something to help me sleep (usually 1 Tylenol PM does the trick.)

I hope things get settled for you soon and you start feeling better!

happy555 · March 2012

((hugs)) It's ok, you did the right thing. I'm supposed to be in NOLA, running my first full right now, but H and I split, and life just got too crazy for me to keep up with training. I did keep up with working out though, I just did whatever I felt like instead of putting pressure on myself to follow a plan. For me, that meant I skipped a lot of runs, and did a lot of swimming, simply because I find being in the water soothing. I would advise following the same path, try to do some form of workout for stress relief, but don't worry about a plan or what it is, just do whatever feels best on any given day. For me it is important to try to do something, at least a couple times a week, or else I start to get anxious about not working out, in addition to everything else that is going on. Take care, and I hope things start to get better for you.

PrincessPeach05 · March 2012

I agree that there will be other races, and you did the right thing. I really hope you find some peace soon!

Cinco · March 2012

You did the right thing. Hang in there, and take care of yourself.

aeroluv327 · March 2012

Hope you are feeling better soon.

taratru · March 2012

Nothing to add that pps haven't already said. Just *hugs*. I hope you're back to par soon.

psyri · March 2012

I had similar issues right before I started therapy (and got out a year later so much better off). It feels like you are stuck in a never-ending cycle of negativity. You are strong and you will get through this and there will be other races.

Sadlebred · March 2012

You did the right thing! You know that you can pick it back up when life stops interfering....

shorty20 · March 2012

I'm sorry you're going through a rough patch, I agree that you did the right thing, there will always be more races. Take care of yourself and get better!

rasurgenor · March 2012

It definitely sounds to me like you did the right thing, so do not worry. I will be thinking good thoughts for you to get things worked out. I am looking forward to meeting you in person in June!

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